When everyone is gone

all you need is yourself you've had that in you forever all you need is yourself and one or two good shows to carry you through

Years later. Like a lot

“We will always have your back” Never meant what I thought When the rubber met the road You were gone You are gone The lot of you

we are so weak

wherever you turn you can see failure.
we fall so short of glory.
we come so far from what we are supposed to be.

i'm sitting in the hospital hallway.
2nd time i've been here and it isn't much different that the first.
other than a room change and some severe weight loss.
its nice and clean
and everyone smiles.

but beneath it all is this sobering-ness
if i can use that word.
that realization that people all around are sick.
some don't have anyone visiting.

then you have children walking around the hallways.
and they bring this bright ray of light in.
its an interesting dichotomy.

and the people that visit bring joy, laughter, and hope.
and you can can see the difference.

i just hope we can shine Christ throughout this place.

.iloveyouSteph.

-Lnk-

wine

so i found a bottle on wine in the fridge and felt like being risky.
so i took a sip
and it was delicious.

i drank some.
and loved it.
especially with hummus.

i love sleep and work has been sapping me of myself lately.
i don't know what to make of 9-5 jobs.
i can't see how someone would have one and still have a personality.
it's sad.

imagine how cool we'd all be if we didn't have to give so much to our jobs.

.lethargic.

-Lnk-

amazing

up in VA at Lynchburg General hanging out with my boi Gonzo.
he was diagnosed with cancer and it spread to his lungs and brain.
his whole family is here including a copious amount of friends and visitors.

its simply amazing to see God's people come together to help.
it's also crazy how this situation worked out.
if things were any different most of us wouldn't be able to be up here to be with him.
God is so great.

the people at the hospital have been great
and the hospital itself is purty snazzy.
very nice facilities and everything here is chill.
my sis, steph and i are staying at Gonzo's apartment
which is mad nice.
the price to lease their apartment down in FL
would be ridiculous.

i'm so happy to be able to be here and be here
for my best friend who has been there for me in the past.
i'm very very tired so the rest should be read with that in mind.

since being here alot of people have contacted Gonzo.
some people have been lamerz in his past
in our past.
that word "our" encompasses a large group of people.
and now they come back.
now i'm all for people offering prayers
and i'm not going to take away the joy of giving from anyone.
but seriously?

you were gone for +5 years
and now.
i don't know how i feel about that.
i don't know how i feel about how you water it down
and cheapen it
and play vulgar songs behind your videos.

where'd you come from
and where are you going?

you hurt a lot of people.
you should apologize before you start praying.
i'm just saying

.tootiredtoshowemotion.

-Lnk-

so yeah, long time

i'm in class AGAIN.
someone mentioned blogging and i realized i've been slacking
but no one reads this so no worries.

things are going great at Weston
and i'm excited about the future and what God has in store for us.
i'll be blogging on the future "Context" page
so i have to get in the routine of doing this again.

i'm tired lately.
and my sleeping patterns have been completely out of whack
i can't concentrate for the life of me.
i just want to sleep.

lead worship at Weston this past weekend.
i thought it was mediocre.
but apparently a lot of people liked it.
i talked to Tommy about this
but the speed i want to take the transition in Weston
is definitely not the speed at which is going.

but at least we aren't playing Usher songs on stage
*cough* *cough*

but i'm going to force myself to look up at the teacher
so they feel that i'm paying attention.

.ihavetopee.

-Lnk-
u

just disappointed

i'm so weirded out right now.
facebook is cool but makes me so mad.
correction,
the people on facebook make me mad.
say one thing and have pictures of another.

stop you idiots.

.nonewfriends.


-Lnk-