just to be big

it seems that you arrange stuff to get attention.
hangouts, so you can make the jokes.
i don't know how this works.
i just feel icky, like they all still have some primordial ooze on top of their skin.
it doesn't feel right driving around,
and it sure doesn't feel right stepping on the grounds.

but who am i to judge?
i'm dirtier than anyone.
but i still don't like it.
it's not a grudge i'm holding,
its an opinion held by me and others whose names you've trashed.
for what reason you trashed us,
don't know.
and i doubt you even know yourself.
its just too easy to gossip,
and its kind of fun.

today can be awful or awesome.
depends on what happens with 3 people.
but my days mood shouldn't be dictated by what happens.
i'll be content cause i am,
not because you are healed.

.but that's what we're praying for.

-Lnk-

muzak

so i played with some crazy musicians.
i was beyond nervous to play with them seeing as they are uber better than me.
its like playing basketball with jordan and dr. j
but it went swimmingly.

we practice again on tuesday.

i'm tired.
i'll be back soon.

-Lnk-

moo, baa and other noises that make animals taste so good

vegetarian, vegans.
been hearing a lot of those words lately.
from those i work with, to ones i love.
i respect people who say they take a stand in something,
and actually stand for it.
so saying that,
here is my stance with this whole vegetarian thing.

God made man to name the animals,
not the other way around.
animals were made to be our pets, our instruments to work with
ours.
to eat, to play along with.
all that stuff.

now saying that,
i don't think animals should cruelly killed.
i believe that you shouldn't keep a baby calf in a pen all its life
so its muscles don't get exercised and its meat is more tender.
i don't believe animals should be fed steroids or hormones.

now when the animals are killed,
i do believe it should be killed quickly and with no pain.

in looking up this subject,
i found an article that sums this up nicely.
it deals with more of the question of Do Animals Have Souls.
it also touches on them being our equals,
and what position that leaves us in using the Bible as our reference.
this is bits and pieces of the article,
read the whole article for yourself:

If you ever owned a dog, a cat, or any other kind of animal to which you grew attached, you may have wondered whether or not that animal had a soul. Men and women through the ages have pondered the same question. Animals— whose vast numbers stretch into the millions—are ubiquitous as our co-inhabitants on planet Earth. They serve as an unpaid, ever-dependable, and quite invaluable work force as they help the farmer plow a rough field or the blind person cross a busy city street. They account for a considerable portion of the total world food supply for humans. They provide joy and companionship for young and old alike. They are an undeniable boon to mental health, especially for sick children and the infirm elderly. Surely none among us would doubt the many benefits that accrue as a result of the presence of animals among us.

This type of thinking—that men and animals both possess “inherent value equally”—has set the stage for those who profess a belief in God to set forth their claim that animals do indeed possess immortal souls. In his book, All Creatures Here Below, Frank Hoffman stated:

...if the animal sacrifice is the precursor, or type of the final sacrifice of our Lord and Savior, which is a mainstream Christian teaching, is God’s Word not also telling us that animals do have souls?... Now then, why are we reluctant to accept the fact that animals do have souls? Because we are still trying to hold on to some of our pride, and perhaps our greed. If we do not accept the fact that animals have souls, then we may have a self-acceptable excuse for the way we treat the rest of God’s creatures, which is not in accordance with God’s desire, but ours (1998, emp. added).

The position advocated by such writers is completely at odds with the teaching found in God’s Word. First, man and animals do not share kinship—all the claims of evolutionists (and those sympathetic to them) notwithstanding. The apostle Paul addressed this very point in 1 Corinthians 15 when he wrote: “All flesh is not the same flesh: but there is one flesh of men, and another flesh of beasts, and another flesh of birds, and another of fishes” (v. 15, emp. added). As Stuart Walker correctly commented: “Genesis 1:26-30 and 2:7,21-25 clearly states that man was a special creation with no phylogenetic relationship to any other creature. Thus, there is a phylogenetic discontinuity between man and animals—we are not physically interrelated” (1991, 5[2]:21, emp. added). As Adam previewed the animals in the Garden of Eden for a mate and went about naming them (Genesis 2:18-20), this “discontinuity” became clear. Among all the animals that God had created, there was none that corresponded to him. Not one sufficed to remove him from his personal isolation of being “alone” (Genesis 2:18)

Second, man was commanded to “subdue and have dominion over the fish of the sea, and over the birds of the heavens, and over every living thing that moveth upon the earth” (Genesis 1:28). The Hebrew word for “subdue” (kabash) is described in Strong’s Exhaustive Concordance as meaning “to tread down,” “to bring under subjection,” etc. The same word is used in Numbers 32:22, 29 and Joshua 18:1 where it is used to describe the subduing and pacifying of Israel’s enemies.

Man alone was created “in the image and likeness of God” something that may not be said of animals. he key is found in Genesis 1:26-28, 2:18-25, and 9:5-7; it is that only man is created in the image of God.”

But do animals have souls? Animals may be said to have souls—if the word “soul” is used as the Bible employs it in discussing members of the animal kingdom (i.e., to describe only the physical life force found within all living creatures). But if the word “soul” is used to refer to an immortal soul that one day will inhabit heaven or hell, then no, animals may not be said to possess a soul. This is the only conclusion that can be drawn, respecting the instruction on the subject found within the Word of God.

well that's alot of stuff.
and that's all i have to say about that.

-Lnk-

laughs and frowns

tonight was awesome.
went to Coco Walk and hit up the Miami Improv.
great stuff.
we laughed so damn hard.

just a great time.

then "skinny is pretty."
i'm done.
i love you.

.done.

-Lnk-

july 11th

be there.
cause i will be.

playing with my new band.
crudbot.
sickness.

.sing o daughter, o zion.

-Lnk-

winning

i play halo 3.
a lot.
like too much.
its fun, its competitive, its loud.
shooting, grenades, hiding places.
its good.

but i was holding my dog and sitting on our diving board and
wondering why i don't like to not be first when i play.
its just a game.
for fun right, just a good time.
but then why do i need to be first?

why do i have that need to be the best at everything?
many people are much better at most everything.
why can't i just realize that i can be mediocre.

its just odd, that whole need to be the best.
not just cause that's my life's goal.
like i want to be the world's best javelin thrower,
so i practice all my life and make it to the Olympics.
they deserve it.

but like my want to be the best to tell everyone else that i am,
so i can be the best.

this flesh and its wants and desires,
weird.
i just want it to die.

.agent michael scarn- threat level midnight.

-Lnk-

how lucky i am

so you take down what My son died on,
why?
so you don't offend people.
I am truth.

what happened to the person who gave all they had,
but all they had was not a thousand dollars.
it was a penny.
their hearts were and are pure.
where is their banquet?
where is their invitation?

why do you give crooked harsh answers
to straight honest questions?

why do you continually run back to the pig's trough?
I have a feast, I have Living Water.
yet you run back to the things that leave you hungry.
that leave you hurt.

I should let you die.
let you lie in your own grave that you have dug.
let you breathe in the dirt and let it clog up your lungs.
you deserve what you deserve.

how lucky i am that i am not God.

.see you later pan.

-Lnk-

i just said it, can you believe me?

backwards and inverted.
i want i want
i need i need.

call me greedy,
call me a jerk.
i am getting quieter.
i am finding my corner and staying there.

i don't want to.

.are you serious, he was here? when i was talking to the fake tina fey?.

-Lnk-

the beginning

i hate gnats.
i had every intention to enjoy this nice afternoon.
i got on my bike, pumped some jams and started pedaling.
damn gnats were everywhere.
i kept running into them, they were getting in my eyes, ears, on my shirt.
yuck

so i had to turn around and cancel the whole schabang!
~~~~~~~~~~~~
but your kisses brought me back.
i love you.
and you shouldn't hate yourself.
you are great.
smile.

.king of the stupid universe.

-Lnk-

camp, quick recap

it was awesome.
made some great friendships,
got covered in more condiments than ever before.
played signs and witnessed the consumption of some atrocious food.
learned that everything happens for a reason
and that to enjoy life, you need to enjoy today.

i danced for an entire crowd,
that will most likely never happen again.
i was the leader of the Flaming Hot Cheetos
and lead the team to victory everyday.
i sang louder and lost my voice quicker.

people listened when i spoke,
and had actual things to say back.

i'm so lucky, nay, blessed to have gone.
i'm just sad that it ended so soon.

.dddddddoooooooossssssssshhhhhhhhh.

-Lnk-

the stars and flight

i walked out back and just sat down.
i embarrassed myself.
so i looked at the stars.
i closed my eyes and thought how cool it would be to fly.
just to swoop over the lake,
float over 75.
just fly right out of here and out of my life for a second.

and again i wake up to an empty house.
i don't mind it, i actually kind of enjoy it.
but at sometime i'd like someone here.
to just be with.
to help me mow the lawn.
someone to cook lunch for.

the dog is here, but she doesn't do much beside sleep.
just me, here and the 360.

.that'll do pig, that'll do.

-Lnk-

i'm a victim

of my own demise.
~~~~~
i tried to talk tonight.
i think i did purty well.
it was fun.
thanks so much for driving back for me.

but i am still the architect for my prison.

-Lnk-