now i lay me down to sleep

i go to bed after the laziest day of my life.
it was awesome.
just laying around and being with friends.
i gave my worries to God.
i'm sad but not broken.
when people ask me questions
i answer them truly,
and in thinking back
i feel i didn't over react.
think i handled it well.

i haven't been single in like 5 years.
it's weird,
and it hurts.
after having someone to call
or text.
but this is what i've been dealt.
it is for a reason
so i trust that God is at work

been reading and talking to God.
in the absence of having someone,
i now see time that i can talk to Him.

tomorrow will be challenging,
as will going home and taking down pictures and paintings will be.
the slow scrubbing of memories
and places.
this all is a long
hurting process.

but with friends and God,
i did it before,
and i can do it again.

.thejoythatwassetbeforeHim.


-Lnk-