we must do what we have to, to do what we want to

oh yeah. thank God. i could use a companion.

to hell or bust. i could use a companion.

nothing is as devastating as seeing our heart

in its worse state.

we burn what we don't understand,

cause we are afraid.

we are afraid of what is different.

oh you could?

-Lnk-

no, no, no, no, no

honey why you going to go run?

cause there are too many demons waiting at home.

like what?

like the computer, the tv, my thoughts.

its so quiet and the stars from miles and miles away,

shine on me.

no no no no no

you haven't gone,

no no no no no

you aren't going.

i wish i could throw a temper tantrum

it would set me back about, oh lets say,

20 years.

but it would relieve so much stress.

just lay on the floor and cry,

and punch at mid air.

actually that would look quite funny.

i would probably just cry.

i have a black spot in my finger and it won't come out.

i've said hi to more people than ever before.

you think i would know better,

but still i want.

no no no no no

beat your body into submission.

why don't you want to go home honey?

.cause you aren't there.

-Lnk-

the pressure of being numbers

i can do it but no one else can,

cause no one else matters.

this night on this dance floor,

this drink and this smoke will be the last,

the last of the first leg.

next is the second go around.

i will drink myself into this grave that my friends dug for me.

i promised myself long ago that i wouldn't go this far,

that i wouldn't lose control.

they make it seem so easy to let go.

all the preteens,

all the lovers and fighters.

we all want the same thing.

Love.

and we'll take it where we can get it.

i'll take it now,

from you,

and keep taking till you are deflated.

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i observe and watch and this is what my brain spits out.

fun night tonight.

-Lnk-

you want my surrender, you'll find no surrender here

i've forgotten how good it feels

and i've grown so afraid of tomorrow.

getting caught up in what i have no control over,

all the while seeing right through what is in front of me.

they don't call me anything,

i just make up names for myself.

maybe if i took their word i wouldn't hurt.

maybe if i shut up i could hear myself think

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-Lnk-

dry up and burn

we'll let you in our home and our hearts,

we'll keep you alive and bring everyone around.

after that you can stand up for awhile,

but you'll soon come down.

we'll throw you out and let you dry up till we can either burn you or drown you.

you can't choose your death cause you aren't alive,

we shall choose for you.

wait till you turn and rot and when we are tired of seeing you outside

we'll figure out what to do with you.

your life is short lived and you are the star of your time.

anything would want to be the one where everyone sits and laughs,

and eats, and trades, and fights and loves.

you don't judge, you don't hurt,

you just stand their in all your glory displaying your beauty for any who care to witness.

you are beautiful in your life and i believe even lovlier in your death,

or actually in your dying.

you look sad sitting in our backyard and i wish we never had to get rid of you.

but we'll have a new one next year and forget you even where around.

so enjoy your royalty now,

cause it is fleeting.

.so is ours.

-Lnk-

i want to catch you smiling

it will be a sad day when there are more planes than stars,

and no, i'd rather you not go

-Lnk-

70 and still kicking

went to Sebring for New Years,

hung out with some friends and renewed relationships.

it was awesome.

the house was purty and it was just a good time.

played ultimate football at 1 in the morning.

we went on the wave runners this afternoon after a hearty breakfast.

took my girl out on her first wave runner ride

and got taken for a purty nasty ride myself.

it was just great.

"a shot to midori perhaps?"

i can't get enough of my girl.

can't wait to see her tomorrow.

.vampire day.

-Lnk-