its been awhile

got back from haiti this morning.
beautiful.
the people, the scenery,
the richness of God,
the heat, the gnats,
the sweat, the fellowship.

i wasn't to sold on the idea of going at first.
my dad really wanted my sis and i to go at least once.
i had the summer open
and i love to travel.
and i'm so glad i went.

i miss everyone so much
and wish that i had more time
and a better knowledge of creole
to properly communicate the joy
that they have instilled in me.
i saw love and happiness in spite of sheer poverty.
i saw smiles and beautiful teeth from children with bloated,
malnourished stomachs.
i saw a woman who had given up everything,
to move to a foreign country
and be the vessel for God to move.

i saw Acts in motion,
God working,
the Holy Spirit in action
and Jesus Christ being praised.

there are too many things,
experiences,
to put up on here.
i have my journal
and that's where those thoughts will stay.

i will sleep in my bed
knowing that i will be back in haiti.
don't know when,
but i know i will be back.
and i know that God does not need me to work.
He was doing fine their without me
and He is still there now.

God be praised though these hands are wicked,
those this heart is calloused,
those these lips bring bitter waters.

may i step back
and be transparent
so that the light of Christ shines through.

.changeling.

-Lnk-

what?!

okay i'm all for fashion
and i can appreciate eccentric clothing....
but some things just don't fly.
especially when you are going to church.

i don't think short skirts,
low cut dresses,
nut hugger jeans,
skimpy high shorts
or anything along those lines
should be ever worn.
they are just provocative for what reason?
and you are wearing that to go to church?
and when someone asks you in the service
what church you go to,
how will you represent it?

maybe i'm too conservative
but some things just aren't acceptable.
have some decency man.
seriously.

you aren't an object
but you are making yourself out to be

.noi'mnotgoing.

-Lnk-

sickness

so i've been under the weather for the past two days.
and it's no fun.
camp was awesome
and i am glad that i got sick at home
and not at pine lake,
that would've been something awful.

but on to other things.....
for some odd and completely random reason
i have been sucked into the hype that is
"Jon and Kate Plus 8"
and i'm not sure why.
but seeing as they are not on good terms
i feel that i have something to say about this.
so here goes a short, tylenol daytime cold induced rant.

now while no one knows for sure what jon did,
i am in no way justifying his actions.
but.....dude kate
is such a bi...
let me stop before i get out of hand.
she isn't nice.

i've been fortunate to learn and really witness
what roles both men and women have in marriage.
and kate is way to controlling.
now i know people have character traits
and we are all different from each other.
but she is stepping her bounds.

i watched the show before this whole thing went down
and she has always been this way.
if she would give more leniency to jon
i think he wouldn't have gone to that bar and walk out with that lady.

now once again......
i'm not justifying his actions.
kate did not drive him to do this
he still had to make a decision.
but her being a control freak
didn't help.

k i'm done.

going to lay down.
and wait for this medicine kick in

.joel(thewatchmen).

-Lnk-

jehovah

so i went up to boca last night
per the request of crud
to record a song.
i was hesistant at first
as i was mad nervous to play in front of someone
i truly respect.
but it was awesome.

the song we did
sounds so sick
and i can actually say i'm proud of it.
not in the boastful jerk way
but in the God gave me this song way.

so last night was long
and i'm already tired before i've even got to work,
but it was worth it.

.autotunethenews.

-Lnk-

nickel creek

he was an old man
i was a rock at the bottom he was never supposed to view.
but he crashed down
how the winds of change are still true.

i could see in his face the worry of his descent,
i assured him it wasn't too bad besides being bleak.
he tried to talk but water filled his lungs
i said the trick is to live on the water and air never seek.

his veins were visible in his eyes,
his skinned matched the depth of the blue.
no longer would he see the sky
his hands split and legs broke too.

he was dying in front of my eyes
the pressure of living can be harsh.
but i've been here 20 years
and don't plan of being nice now.

his body shivered and quaked
and lungs collapsed, one then two.
i laughed, this happens to all
i said "die and except your truth.

the reason i was already down here
i found the truth
and that is that nothing is true.
only that the ground exists
and you are dead."

as his left hand popped one last time
a white paper fluttered out.
it danced around his seizing body
and its red letters spelled "COME OUT!!!"

it was my loved one's script
she saw me dive to this depth.
she sent him as a messenger
and i let him go.

his eyes looked wide
he mouthed "sorry."
i whispered
"i am."

his body floated back up
and i saw my last chance leaving.
i struggled, wiggled and danced.
i was free.
i pushed as hard as rock could.

i landed on his back.
we floated to the top.
the snakes picked at him as we surfaced
and the sea was as calm as the sand.

there she was,
smiling.
i saw her for the first time in 20
and knew i was wrong.

she picked me up
and his body floated away.
she kissed my hard shell
and covered me in a blanket.

whatever i thought down there didn't matter.
she was here with me.
why would she love me?
why did he die?

he was my saving grace
to bring me to her.

i was a rock at the bottom
and i was saved.
and brought back to my love.

-Lnk-

what am i

what am i doing with such a girl?
honestly God,
who am i?
dude, she laughs at will ferrell.

i couldn't be more satisfied.
God is too good
and who wouldve thought
that He'd answer a prayer so exactly.

i'm simply amazed.
quiet and awestruck.
this week has been nuts at times
but right now i'm chill
and this is too good.

.ithoughtweweresupposedtobepatriotic.

-Lnk-

bank accounts and rosie o' donnell

so tonight was shocking.
the dude at eikon could've been reading off my life script.
he nailed it.
i was reluctant to go to the grille,
but i went and like usual
it was a lot of fun.
good times with good people.

but she wore my hoody
and it covered her hands
and was way too big on her
but she was ever so cute in it.
this is all new
and so exciting.

i have to get shots in the morning.
last time i had shots i think i was 11.
grrrrr.....no fun
and i have to wake up mad early as well.
double gross.

i keep thinking i hear the chat "bleep"
hoping you message me.

you did :)

so yeah tomorrow is my boi's wedding rehearsal.
i'm looking forward to it.
playing music with excellent musicians
is never a bad thing.
its quite glorious
and about the closest i think i'll get to flying.

i'm listening to jaga jazzist
don't know why i ever took them off.
they are so great.
perfect chill music.

lyric to remember

"Jesus died my soul to save" my lips shall still repeat.

beautiful......
oh man think i just got transported
to another world.
jaga jazzist is killing it so good right now.

wish i had someone to share this other headphone with.

.alivingroomhush.

-Lnk-