no love

i'm tired of this drive
and waking up so damn early.
arrrghhhhh
just bring the fall already
i want the cool weather.
i want to be at church playing music already
the journey there is way TOO long.

just keep talking dude
but no one is listening.
why is this the right thing to do?

i'll never know.
i have some weird theories but they would just sound ridiculous.

.brainwashing?.

-Lnk-

mw2

got modern warfare 2 tonight.
headed to gamestop and held my number 34.
and the game is worth all the waiting and the receipt exchanges.
its mad intense and going to consume a lot of my time.

but on the more serious side
i am praying about going into the ministry.
using my gift of music in the church as a worship pastor.
so i'm mulling through what that would mean for me,
and trying to keep everything in line.
but it is harsh.

i don't understand everything
and God has been granting me patience
and mercy.
and i am thankful.

but i also am tired.
and i will go to sleep
with unresolved issues
that i can't control
but i'm trying to get it addressed,
but the addressee continues to return my requests.

.alliwanttodoishelp.

-Lnk-

i didn't even know

that this was so tedious.
that time went so quickly.
that i would be affected this much.
that this sucks sooooo much.

goodness, this is just down right ridiculous.
i starting to really hate things.
the drive isn't what i detest
its what happens after i get out of the car.

i don't even want to put it down
but i want to remember how far i've come.

.rabblerabble.

-Lnk-

gorgeousity

what are you dreaming of?
what makes you so comfortable around me?
you are so peaceful as you drift off into sleep.
i'm encompassed by your beauty
and can't explain what you do to me.

but i love it.

i'm putting this down to try and capture this moment
cause forgetting it would be a crime.

.i'llkeepyouwarm.

-Lnk-

school is my cage

i'm back at FIU.
i miss haiti.
there is too much here to distract me.
but i'm making the best of it.

got to watch shawshank last night.
definitely one of my top five movies.
i'm sucking the bandwidth dry hahaha

i have no truck.
sherman is in the shop
but hopefully i'll have him back by today.
i do miss my vehicle.

goodness people here are so into there appearance.

in my first class my teacher wanted me to talk about haiti.
so i did.
was working my way into talking about God and that Jesus being the main reason i went.
but he wouldn't stop talking.....
oh well.
i'm hoping they gathered that when i said i went with my parents church.

well i'm off to drown myself in youtube videos and wait to go eat.

peace

.37927.

-Lnk-

this class

is so stupid.
i've been surfing icanhascheezburger.com
all day.

things have been looking up.
things aren't easier or getting better
but i've been talking to God consistently
and really feel Him moving through my actions.
my truck is crapping out, school is becoming overwhelming,
funds are tight, and i'm not sleeping enough
but God is good.

a verse i read yesterday really helped me.
1 peter 1:3-9
beautifully beautiful
really helped me last night.
i almost lost it at church
felt the tears waiting to come out.
choked them down and got through everything.

i'm looking forward to eating and listening to hank hannegraff's podcast.

had someone talk to me today. out of nowhere
that was nice.

and she is beautiful. so cute last night
and she fell asleep.......hahaha
like she always does.

.bser.

-Lnk-

ncaa and the jacuzzi

this weekend has been awesome.
had some friends over to play tons of cod.
we actually stayed up mad late
till 4:30am, playing
and got purty dang far.
and the house looked like a nerd central
haha

after 4 hours of sleep i woke up
and turned on college gameday.
then it was the gators dominating troy.
which i watched jacuzzi side
thanks to a quite crafty friend.
diversion maneuvers.
it was awesome.

then i took my lovely lady out to the theatre
and saw 9.
great great film.
but i was and am mad tired.
everything starts returning normal tomorrow
but we still have NFL.....yeah!!!!

oh well now to sleep and an early start to tomorrow.
g'night

.streetfighter2.

-Lnk-