Friday, August 20, 2010

we are so weak

wherever you turn you can see failure.
we fall so short of glory.
we come so far from what we are supposed to be.

i'm sitting in the hospital hallway.
2nd time i've been here and it isn't much different that the first.
other than a room change and some severe weight loss.
its nice and clean
and everyone smiles.

but beneath it all is this sobering-ness
if i can use that word.
that realization that people all around are sick.
some don't have anyone visiting.

then you have children walking around the hallways.
and they bring this bright ray of light in.
its an interesting dichotomy.

and the people that visit bring joy, laughter, and hope.
and you can can see the difference.

i just hope we can shine Christ throughout this place.



Tuesday, August 10, 2010


so i found a bottle on wine in the fridge and felt like being risky.
so i took a sip
and it was delicious.

i drank some.
and loved it.
especially with hummus.

i love sleep and work has been sapping me of myself lately.
i don't know what to make of 9-5 jobs.
i can't see how someone would have one and still have a personality.
it's sad.

imagine how cool we'd all be if we didn't have to give so much to our jobs.



Saturday, July 24, 2010


up in VA at Lynchburg General hanging out with my boi Gonzo.
he was diagnosed with cancer and it spread to his lungs and brain.
his whole family is here including a copious amount of friends and visitors.

its simply amazing to see God's people come together to help.
it's also crazy how this situation worked out.
if things were any different most of us wouldn't be able to be up here to be with him.
God is so great.

the people at the hospital have been great
and the hospital itself is purty snazzy.
very nice facilities and everything here is chill.
my sis, steph and i are staying at Gonzo's apartment
which is mad nice.
the price to lease their apartment down in FL
would be ridiculous.

i'm so happy to be able to be here and be here
for my best friend who has been there for me in the past.
i'm very very tired so the rest should be read with that in mind.

since being here alot of people have contacted Gonzo.
some people have been lamerz in his past
in our past.
that word "our" encompasses a large group of people.
and now they come back.
now i'm all for people offering prayers
and i'm not going to take away the joy of giving from anyone.
but seriously?

you were gone for +5 years
and now.
i don't know how i feel about that.
i don't know how i feel about how you water it down
and cheapen it
and play vulgar songs behind your videos.

where'd you come from
and where are you going?

you hurt a lot of people.
you should apologize before you start praying.
i'm just saying



Wednesday, July 14, 2010

so yeah, long time

i'm in class AGAIN.
someone mentioned blogging and i realized i've been slacking
but no one reads this so no worries.

things are going great at Weston
and i'm excited about the future and what God has in store for us.
i'll be blogging on the future "Context" page
so i have to get in the routine of doing this again.

i'm tired lately.
and my sleeping patterns have been completely out of whack
i can't concentrate for the life of me.
i just want to sleep.

lead worship at Weston this past weekend.
i thought it was mediocre.
but apparently a lot of people liked it.
i talked to Tommy about this
but the speed i want to take the transition in Weston
is definitely not the speed at which is going.

but at least we aren't playing Usher songs on stage
*cough* *cough*

but i'm going to force myself to look up at the teacher
so they feel that i'm paying attention.



Wednesday, June 16, 2010

just disappointed

i'm so weirded out right now.
facebook is cool but makes me so mad.
the people on facebook make me mad.
say one thing and have pictures of another.

stop you idiots.



Saturday, June 12, 2010

camp over

it was amazing.
prayer was answered so quickly.
God was so evident
and His children lifted His name at the top of their lungs.
getting back to the real world so quickly is disheartning.

i'm tired.
and miss it.
perspective is so much clearer there.

i need God.



Thursday, June 10, 2010

under the canopy

i'm sitting underneath the most beautiful display i've seen in awhile.
in a dark field
away from light
i can see each star twinkle.
each light spark off and on.

a shooting star flies over my left.

i see a street light behind me
and see how we once again blot out
God's glory.
we ignorantly retard it
thinking that this well help.
that our efforts will bring us closer.

our efforts are useless.
we cannot draw close to a God whose "street light" is the sun.

we cannot fathom His wisdom
we cannot understand His ways.
we have only to humbly ask for Him to draw us close.

He brings us
He calls us
He began the rescue
And He will finish the war.

we can only ask to be His children
and for Him to show us a measure of grace
and allows us to be His.

awaken our souls.
still our minds.
may the nature that proclaims Your glory
always bring us to a halt.