cue Handel's Messiah

oh my goodness.
although i know some people enjoy these books,
this article expresses my opinion better than i think i could.
enjoi.......

http://outtheotherear.wordpress.com/2008/12/01/twilight-has-raped-the-minds-of-teenage-girls-everywhere/#comments

.sorryifyoulikethebooks.

-Lnk-

my room is a mess, but it was a great night

spitting theology never sounded so good
over Pink Floyd's "The Dark Side of the Moon"

we smoked pipes and talked about whatever we were learning.
ranging from speaking in tongues
to the book of Acts.

and then we found ourselves in waffle house.
david hadn't ever been to a waffle house before.
we continued talking before we got any service,
you don't go to waffle house for the quick service,
you go cause its greasy and good food.

he's liking a girl,
and he's to self conscious about himself.
dude, she's cool.
your cool,
just take it slow and hang out with her.
+she can quote scripture
dude don't worry.
she said she liked your style.

hahaha.
it was a great night and once it's almost 3am.
but tomorrow's going to be long.
and hopefully my girl and i can hang out.

.themusical.

-Lnk-

boy with a lighter or girl with a match

today was nice.
slept in.
can't get out of bed when it feels so good to stay.

work was nice,
kids cried,
more kids cried.

my boi came over and we played ncaa,
pwned schools.

i was waiting for some people to come over,
but as night trotted on,
i received no call.
but at 12:45 he called.
they came over.

after the fire had died out,
we sat around and talked about
coldplay,
dave matthews,
acts,
david,
fire,
bladder control.

i was impressed by a match and a determined girl.
she kept a weak fire alive as long as we were out there.
we spoke,
they talked about FSU,
and threw paper on a fire.
green flames are so purty.

it was nice,
they were a little to loud when they came in the house.
but both girls tripped over the outside step,
i'm a horrible host.

nice unexpected night.
hope it happens again.

.toothfairytats.

-Lnk-

insomnia

i'm eating an apple.
its scrumptious.
i went on a bike ride,
to watch the moon.
its bright and perfectly circular.

i'm drawing back.
i'm ready for someone to do something wrong,
so i'm not giving it my all.
its easy to get away with it
when distance is aiding you.

my fingers smell of tobacco,
and it reminds me of grandpa.

my mind is reading the Bible while my heart is searching,
running my eyes through the scriptures to find where He says I love you.
He said it on the cross,
He said it through His blood.

and how do i show Him that I love Him?
can i just say it and that be good enough.

but love is sacrificial, love is an action/ love aint fleeting love is everlasting
-Sho Baraka

its amazing.
this love.
and its not "love everyone."
good feeling, generic.
its specific,
cause this love is for you.
for me.
its more than what i'm doing right now,
its more than what people think it is,
at least i think it is.

so i stay up late
and sleep in later than i did yesterday.
and i eat more apples,
and drink more water.
listen to more music,
watch more movies.
enjoy my sheets more,
miss my innocence
and childlike trust/faith more.
wish i had no walls,
no problems,
no past to help create barriers,
no worries to fashion hurdles.

i want to be alex, caroline, megan,
josh, isaiah, emily.
i want to be the kids i work with.
they are loud,
they are honest,
they are looking to learn,
curious and so innocent.
they call out what is wrong,
they apologize with their heart and not their words.

Jesus said, "Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these."
-Matthew 19:14

the kingdom belongs to them,
and is most easily seen in their smiles.

.afterthemusicstops20/20.

-Lnk-

movie fiend

i've watched 5 movies throughout today's time.
in order:

Donnie Darko
South Park :Long and Uncut
Memento
Evil Dead
Borat

jessie came over and we practiced for this upcoming sunday.
we are singing some songs for the childrens ministry.
they are christmas songs.
i love christmas songs but man they are difficult.
i like singing with jessie.
its easy and effortless.

she brought over our vbs music video.
i'm in only like 45 seconds of it,
but it came out a lot better than i expected.

feel in love with the song from Donnie Darko.
its called "Mad World".
the one in the movie is by Gary Jules,
its a Tears for Fears song,
but Gary re-did it for the movie.
beautiful in a dark,
sorrowful kind of way.

great song.

i'm going to bed with my windows closed,
which really makes me mad.
i've enjoyed the cool air in my room at night,
and loved being stirred out of sleep by the sun in the morning.
but south floridas weather is,
as a friend so aptly put it,
"going through menopause".
hot, cold, hot, cold.

i go to bed knowing that i will watch more movies tomorrow,
my best friend is in town,
the office is on again tomorrow night,
and we got a new firepit.

"can life get any better than this?
i submit that it cannot."-Brian Regan

.herestomydreams.

-Lnk-

good...nay i say great

tonight was good.
showed up for a bible study and was the only person there.
but we talked as we ate chick-fil-a
we talked about the Bible.
in the middle of the Chick-fil-a
we spoke on 1 John 2: 24-28.

then we stood outside and talked more.
about life, life as Christians in this world
our responsibilities and our purpose.
it was great,
have a date a week from today.
with my friends and one guy is inviting this girl named taylor,
he works with her.
he says she's a Buddhist
but wants her to see what its like to live with people,
listen to people, learn from each other.
Proverbs 27:17
"As iron sharpens iron,
so one man sharpens another."

she smokes,
we'll smoke.
just singing old praise and worship songs with our guitars,
smoking cigars and/or cloves,
talking about what we are struggling with,
listening to records.

should be interesting.
good times talking,
good times eating.

my goodness chick-fil-a
has to be heaven sent.

.donniedarko.

-Lnk-

tired

painted my house today.
got paint on myself,
and sweated.

gators won.
and what a game it was.
so good.
read and studying 1 john 2:1
taking it word by word.

tomorrow should be chill.
church and relax.

the weather has been beautiful,
sunny and cool.

i like my dad.
i was pissed at him yesterday
but today was good.
i helped him paint and felt like his son.
although i already knew the procedure and process of painting with a roller,
i played along.
his friend came over.
they were going to ride bike's to a local sports bar to watch the uf vs bama game.
i caught myself following them two around the house.
my dad was showing his friend the new improvements and what he's working on,
and i followed like a five year old boy,
walking in his dad's footsteps.
just curious as can be.

funny.
been turning in early lately
and tonight i will follow suit.
with my windows open to let in the breeze.

venus and jupiter are visible now.
they are the two bright "stars" under the moon.
sort of south east of the moon.
beautiful.

we are so small
and the night is so grand.

.beautiful.

-Lnk-

grace in all its beauty

i will never understand how dead i was,
what God has saved me from.
and my responsibility,
and my pleasure to serve such a wonderful God.

-Lnk-

laugh please

if you consider yourself as someone who has a sense of humor
visit www.southparkstudios.com
and click on season 12 and watch episode 13
titled Elementary School Musical.
and laugh please.

.singinganddancingstupid.

-Lnk-

listening to music that makes listening to music exciting

i think it was what i can't let go,
i think it was me being tired,
i think it was you being tired.

like a puzzle that doesn't fit,
it feels awkward.

i enjoyed the scavenger hunt.
it was fun.

i'm sorry i was off.
you are home and i'm not ready for you.
i'm off my game.
i'm sorry again.

when we hugged it did feel beyond right.
i wish we hugged longer.
and you did kiss me despite my nasty 'stache.

i'm not going to go crazy,
i know that after i sleep,
after my proverbial slate is cleaned,
i will have tomorrow.

.beconsciousfilter.

-Lnk-

good times, great oldies

went to the movies tonight,
hung out with the boys.
haven't had one of those nights in a long time
it was real good
very edifying.

I'm excited to have tomorrow off,
relax at home.
run, read and play a game about running.
sarah comes home tomorrow afternoon,
hoping that we get to hang out.

i love her.
i really do.
i hope she knows that

and now I retire to my cold sheets,
open windows, cool breeze and south park episodes.

i done been crossed over,
see the full court press.

-Lnk-

its been awhile

i haven't blogged on here in a coon's age.
hung out with yessie last night.
just went to applebee's and watched whale wars.
crazy show.

my boi is down from virginia,
we are going to hang out today and tonight.
i'm excited.
i miss him in a manly way.

i'm in a sorry state.
i'm sick, like head cold;
and now my stomach hurts.
i really do hate facebook.
sometimes it sucks.

oh yeah, went to gainesville to watch a UF game.
nice campus,
that is real college life.
the whole city revolves around UF.
the football team owned.
it was a lot of fun and i think i'm being converted,
converted to a gator fan.
well to be converted i think you need to have a prior preference,
to which i never did.
i can't wait to leave for Disney,
to just relax and not think about anything.
it'll be therapeutic.
i've been doing a lot of traveling.

new york three weeks ago,
lake placid two weeks ago,
gainesville last week,
Disney wednesday.

i like it,
like the drive.
the four hours is just far enough to be away,
but not too far that its a long drive.

i need to get running again.
so that's what i will do.

-Lnk-

i'm shaking

i'm sick
God has shown me what it is to be fragile.

my joints ache.
standing up hurts,
closing my fists burns.

i'm up watching South Park.
i'm shaking.

i'm wearing shoes,
long socks,
long shorts,
shirt,
hoodie,
and hat

and my hands are freezing.

tonight i will sweat profusely.

i am fragile.

thank you God for showing me how weak i am.

i will shake tonight,
till i fall asleep.
but i have no control over it.
i am a weak vessel.

and God still loves this shaking boy.
my face is hot.

i laughed and my stomach hurt.

thank you Lord for pain,
thank you that i realize i'm just skin barely hanging onto bones.

in my pain i'm thinking,
i guess my brain isn't fried.
that's good.

Sarah.......
you are beautiful.
thank you.

ps a temporary cure for whatever ails you
is any bond movie,
preferably the newest one.

.goodnight.

-Lnk-

kick it uncle sam

i just realized something.
politics don't exist outside.
like outside my house.
in the open air,
there are no politics.
sure there is order,
but no politica

that is where i will spend tonight.
not glued to a tv seeing which precinct did what,
i'm not escaping reality.
i'm instead enjoying what God made and enjoying life free from news shows,
from correspondents in the field,
from red and blue maps of our country.

and i'll smoke.
and i'll finish watching Hellraiser.
weird movie.
weird world we've created to keep us busy from enjoying the world God created.

.herestostarsandthebreeze.

-Lnk-

so yes....i exploded

today was crazy, like unorganized-organized show.
i'm tired and cranky.
i blew up on texting.....
but that's me.

the good, the bad, the vulgar.

i forgot who i was
and who is in control.
God holds the entire universe.
dude, he friggin' made it.

i'm so dumb for most of my entire life.
i think i can get away with what i want,
i think that i'm special and no one is dealing with distance from God.
the Bible, read that r-tard.
people in there had problems way worse then mine.
and i whine, complain.
if i were God i would smite myself,
for being such a wimp.

man up.
if you are a Christian do it dammit.
live it pansy.
man up.

struggle through it.
grit your teeth till they pop out.

.batjuice.

-Lnk-

sitting on a bridge

Not so tough found out, found out.
Feel so warm sun fire, sun fire.
Not so strong lost out, lost out.
Twice as sweet come round, come round.

And not so fast come back, come back.
Steal away a smile, a smile.
Not right now lay down, lay down.
Not so tough found out, found out.

Hold me. You're here and then you're gone.
Love like a dream, like a sigh.
Tell me you're hearing every word now,
Like a song, love like a song.

-"Not So Tough Found Out" by Copeland

and that's all i have to say about that

-Lnk-

if..

God knows how to get my attention,
and today He did.
in the most blunt way possible,
and i've had to change somethings.

i can't justify the things i have before,
He used mark driscoll to smack me in the face.

crazy stuff.
i can't explain it in words,
so i won't try to.

.peacepeeps.

-Lnk-

jacob and rachel

i was reading on Jacob and Rachel from Genesis.
their story is a long one,
and is purty complicated.
mostly dealing with love
and discontent.
here are some of the lines from the commentary.
"True love requires thorough knowledge. To profess to love someone we do not know intimately is merely to love our mental image of that person. And if he/she does not measure up to our mental image, then our so-called “love” turns to disillusionment and resentment, and sometimes to hatred."

"One great test of true love, therefore, is the ability to wait. Infatuation is usually in a hurry because it is self-centered. It says, “I feel good when I am with you, so I want to hurry up and get you to the altar before I lose you and lose these good feelings.” Love says, “Your happiness is what I want most of all, and I am willing to wait, if need be, to be sure this is what is best for you.” And if it is real, it will stand the test of time."

"Some husbands say, “I could love her more if she would only be sweet.” Love that functions only when she is sweet is not really love. God wants wives to sense their husbands’ intense love for them even when they are acting like stinkers. Maybe men should ask themselves this question periodically, especially in the middle of a disagreement, “Is my wife conscious of my love right now? Is she feeling love, or is she feeling anger, hostility, and rejection?” God made a wife with the need to rest secure in her husband’s love at all times. And that will depend largely on the attitude her husband projects by things as little as the look on his face and the tone of his voice, especially when she is moody and disagreeable."

if you want to read the whole commentary and the mess that was Jacob's life,
here's the link http://www.bible.org/page.php?page_id=1291

.craziness.

-Lnk-

on the safest ledge

i am Jim Halpert or actually
he is me.

would you feel happy to fall like a stone,
if you'd land right here safe in my arms?
it's fine, lock all your doors through the night,
keep it all right here safe in my arms.

.thatsall.

-Lnk-

undue

dead space is sick
so sick

so is the copeland album
you are my sunshine is the title

dont stress yourself
if you gave it your best
that's all you can ask for.
if you want to improve
that's great too.
if you are placing undue stress upon yourself
it's not good or healthy

be safe
and breathe.

.shouldyoureturn.

-Lnk-

my nerd card

so a movie night.
no one showed up.
i ate cookies
and talked about Peru,
Star Wars, guitars,
theft, car accidents.

it was cool.
like i wouldn't think about being in the same room with these people.
but it was awesome getting to know where these kids were from.

i learned how one girl can be born in Peru
and somehow end up in Weston.
pretty crazy, insightful stuff.

i missed an opportunity today.
and i'm killing myself for it.

.callme.

-Lnk-

jim and i

watched the new The Office episode.
love it.
i total sympathize with jim.
i feel his pain.

voting....
it is our right as american's
but i don't want to give that away
to just any candidate.
it's something i cherish.

you can't avoid politics.
i so much enjoy conversations that don't deal with them.
i used to hold conversations about politics in such high regard,
until this election.

i'm tired of people trying to get me to vote their way.
negative campaign ads,
debates that don't answer a damn thing,
and political double-speak.
be clear,
be honest.

no one candidate has convinced me that they are what america needs.
i have opinions that lie on both sides of "party lines",
but i have no reason to cast my full vote for either.

the only recourse i have is prayer.
praying to my God who knows more than i will,
and hopefully through this prayer
be led to vote for someone.

if anything, just to get this out of the way.

politics divide,
and somehow we have given politics the power
to become a sensitive subject.

man, i'm so negative towards our government right now.
but The Office,
i smile.

we need to search God's heart,
until we can say we have done that,
i do not believe we are ready to vote.

.expletive.

-Lnk-

1 John 1

i watched some of the debate tonight.
it was good, i guess.
i don't know what a perfect debate looks like,
so i have no way to gauge this one.
whatever....
3/4's of the way through i had to shower.
while in the shower, i thought about how frustrated politics make me.

i don't know if i can trust the candidates,
don't know if they will keep their word.
don't know about half the stuff they are talking about.
this bill, that vote,
free trade here, health care policy there.
its all very subjective and completely confusing.
purposely?

but in my angst against politics i realized that God,
my God,
does not waver.
He doesn't side with special interests groups,
He doesn't contradict himself, no flip-flopping.
He doesn't mince words, doesn't stutter,
has no moderator that tells Him when His time is up.

He is consistent.
strong, everlasting,
loving, just, true,
soveriegn.

there is no way ever,
that i could've taken the moderator's chair
and asked the questions.
no way they would have let me in.
i will, most likely, never get to talk to either candidate
face to face.
i will never know who they truly are.

not only can i know God's heart
by reading His word,
but He waits for me.
He wants me to know Him,
He wants me to spend time with Him
and asking Him difficult questions.

He is so beautiful.
before i was created, He loved me.
He loves me when i turn my back on Him,
and He will always love me.

He is why i sing,
and walk.
He gives me air to breathe
and the chest to breathe it in.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
1 John 1
John was with Christ and saw Him through His death, resurrection and ascension. He writes this letter to counter the false-teachers coming into churches with doctrine stating that we can have a relationship with God and still walk in sin. They believed the psychical body was evil and/or worthless so they could gratify their lusts because the flesh would eventually be destroyed. One of John's themes in the majority of his books is light vs darkness. In darkness, good and evil appear the same. When light enters, everything is revealed. Darkness cannot exists in light. God is light. He is the only way to be lead out of our dark states, to clean our dark hearts. "If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness." (1 John 1:9) If we confess that we are dark, the light will cleanse us. It will reveal all that is wrong, evil, perverted in our souls. The only remaining thing is our battle against these dark holes in our hearts. Just because we are Christians does not mean we are free from sin. Our confession of sin after our accepting Christ as our Saving Grace, does not keep us from losing our salvation. Our salvation is intact in Christ. Our repentance is our recognition that we have sinned and are not hiding it from ourselves our God, agreeing with God that our sin is wrong, it is sin, and our willingness to forsake it and bringing into the light our tendency of sinning and relying on God to help us overcome it. God cannot be with sin. When we sin it separates us from God. Light cannot exist with dark. If we bring darkness into light, we have become dark and no longer part of the light. We confess our sin to enjoy the maximum fellowship with God.

.whew.

-Lnk-

the office and me

well tonight was extremely overwhelming.
went to class and got tons of friggin' work.
so i came home in a crappy mood.
fixed dinner and turned on The Office.
and it made me smile.

i need to buckle down on school.

that's a side story,
but more importantly is this.

if i receive my highest joy from a tv program,
what the hell am i doing?

God is the ultimate joy.
He is the one to who i should turn to when everything seems impossible.
He is my everything,
waiting for me let Him by my everything.

so after i enjoy my bowl of hot oatmeal,
i will start reading 1 John.

hung out with a friend last night.
i really look up to him.
very knowledgeable and very disciplined in His relationship with God.
our conversations last night were encouraging.
it was if God said, "If you don't know what you should be doing,
here's an example."

so tonight i start and tomorrow i will continue.

here's to the rubber meeting the road.

.honeyNcinnamon.

-Lnk-

this IS music

the lyrics to Lecrae's Fall Back off his Rebel cd.
there is nothing else to say. read.
hit this link to listen to the song
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r4dncwejxfI

I know you might a seen on the TV
You hear on the radio and CD(fall back)
But you can be deceived pretty easy
Believe me... you might wanna (fall back)

The enemy crafty and misleading
that's why I use the word of God to Lead me
And I aint eating everything they feed me
Tryna deceive me...so I gotta fall back

Verse 1:
(LeCrae)
Lies in them songs lies on television
No telling what lies on the television
learned sacrasm, sexism, racism
learned to worship money cars
learned to hate Christians
All the Christians in the movies so typical
alcoholic, child molesting, hypocritice and mystical
They say since everyone is doing it it's normal
But Jesus says be transformed and don't let them conform you
You aint thin enough you need diet
you need a psychic everybody does it you should try it
Spring break hit the beach what you sposed to do?
be careful what you let the media impose on you
You learned how to find peace from TV shows
you learned how to ride clean from them videos In 30 seconds a commercial have you mixed up
(call now and we can have your whole life fixed up)

Verse 2:
(Trip Lee)
These days if you watch the, box you should block your
Mind in these times, and them lies that could lock you
They telling girls in our world to be hot stuff
And telling dudes link with crews on the block tough
Plus I'm feeling like they mock us
They think that God is old school like a box cut
But I'm sure that His flock's tough
And we can judge what is bug, and live pleasing in His sight when the clock's up
I hope we gazing through His lens with eyes
So we can defend what it is when we get they lies
Its on that cash that they fix they mind
Man they always sayin cheese like its picture time (be easy)
Tell em cool it with the mind games
I'm chasing Christ, I'm renewed in my mind frame
And removed from them tired games
Then say my life it aint mine man
We must remove the damaged parts like a tire change

Verse 3:
(LeCrae)
Be rebel let the word of God lead you
Satan uses media to tempt you and deceive you
He will lead ya leach ya leave ya
so be careful as you navigate thru media
take heed fo gravity get the best of you
and you find the concrete bench pressin you
use the word of God to help filter all that
Before you fall into the trap you better fall back
(Trip Lee)
You know what I call that? I call that maturity
Learnin how to fall back so you can live in purity
Learnin how to walk that and saying them you ain't luring me
The media is meeting us with lies but He's curing me (be easy)
I know them guys trying to hype you
But cling to the Lord's Word, flee from them vipers
We spitting aiming at your heart like snipers
We'd like fa you to desire God like Piper

.realmusicexists.

-Lnk-

WOW!!!

i've been on a rap bender lately.
i really like lupe fiasco,
his beats, his lyrics
real talk.
not formulas to sell cd's.

but, my boi up in virginia told me Lecrae came out with a new cd.
i figured i'd give it a shot.
bought it off iTunes
and it is ridiculous.

for those of you who don't know,
Lecrae is a Christian rapper from the midwest.
Christian music has a reputation for sucking,
and believe me, i think that is true for the majority of it.
Christian rap is very easy to make fun of.

but Lecrae, damn man,
its crazy.
the beats are good,
but the lyrical content is superior to anything i've ever heard.
he's so blunt,
so truthful and honest.

and guess what,
Lecrae is on iTunes Top 10 Download list.

i'd quote lines from his cd here,
but i will leave that for later,
seeing as this will be the only cd in my truck
for a long long time.

.(rebel).

-Lnk-

you find what you are looking for

this is as graphic, as blunt and as honest as i've ever been on here
here goes the shit:

i've trained myself to search out for things that stimulate me,
make me happy, at least for the moment.
these "things", whether on computer screens in the form of pornography
or material objects that give me more to call mine,
stand out to me.
i've trained my eyes to find things that appease me.
they are highlighted, bold, in italics, underlined.

i don't even have to think now.
it just happens.
i have an urge and i appease it.

i can blame this on having my best friend and girlfriend away.
but i know its my problem.
i need to let go
of thinking i can control myself,
that i can just look at this site,
or buy this thing and thats it.

i need to talk to God as much as i say i do.
need to read.
i can feel Him chasing me,
feel it in my chest.

last night He was so close i could've touched Him.
reached out in the midst of the singing and touched His hand.
this morning it was a new day.
and i made it all mine for the taking.

i've wasted too many days,
too many.

i'm a walking contradiction,
full of holes and afflictions.
wanting to love on everyone but myself.

.gearup.

-Lnk-

music and control

tonight at church was very good.
music went fine
but michael brought the message.
friggin' strong.

but i'm not sure.
i don't know if i want to know all the time.
about where and what.
or maybe its that i can' handle it.
i'm so immature.

-Lnk-

words are stretching

our words are losing their meaning.
in being thrown from one corner of the US
to another,
they are being stripped of their definitions.

words were meant to be spoken to those around.
face to face,
personal.
we have phones,
they transfer our words across lines,
but we miss out on the experience of actually talking to someone.

.wearetrumped.

-Lnk-

too cool

had to meet up with a fellow classmate to prepare our debate.
i'm taking a class dealing with how to teach students with disabilities.
we touched on our debate slightly,
but mostly talked about our lives.

she is a mother of 3, aregentinian, first year student.

we "dished" on our lives at FIU
our faiths and how that impacted our passion to teach,
and just anything else we deemed suitable for a short conversation.

it was refreshing to speak to someone knowledgable.
she's outside of the realm of my friends,
i don't call her when i need help.
she is an acquaintance.
but because of our belief in God
and that His Son died for our sins,
our conversation was made richer and more meaningful.

that made my day.
she was nice,
and now i know i have someone to talk to in class.

.herestoyoueli.

-Lnk-

no title

eating rice out of a bowl,
in front of a computer screen
that's not giving but taking away my soul.
or am i
a willing participant
in this messed barter system called life.

and what You've fought so hard for,
i'll give it away on a whim.
give it away to the wind.

it could all fall apart tonight
and i'd know it was coming.
i could close my eyes
but there's still my voice saying it's all your fault
you stupid kid.
that's me

and i have no one to blame but myself,
i'm the face in the mirror
saying that i'm better than anyone else.
but it's just me,
this rice in a bowl.
a frustrated heart
with a gaping hole

and i've followed all that i've been told
till i now,
now i just want to know.
who i am,
so i can live.
lord let me know,
so i can live

.iwasandstillameatingtherice.

-Lnk-

bigger than the entire world

today was peaches.
up until i got home from school.
now i'm pissed and looking to start some trouble.
or get into some.

had a great night last night.
hit up chipotle and had a nice convo.
hung out with a friend who has seen as much change as i have.
hell, we've been through the change together.

just talked about how things have progressed.
taught her how to attempt to make o-rings with smoke.
it was fun teaching her something.
she's older and i feel like i'm always looking up to her.
not psychically,
cause i am taller.
but "life-wise", if that makes sense.

i just want to get this done with.
school, studying, having little to no money.
i bought my tickets to new york.
so eventually there will a break in this monotany.

but then i'll have to worry if she'll still love me.
i know she'll look good,
but what about me?
it'll span 6 days
then i'm back in the scheisse (German word, look it up)

so yeah.
my mind is running a thousand miles a minute
and i'd like it to stop for me tonight.
so i can sleep.
so i don't have to worry if this dude is ever going to buy my amp?
he said he would,
so i'll take him at his word.

i'm typing way too fast
and that's when i know i'm not doing so well.

.Arschgesicht.

-Lnk-

evil dead

got this movie.
i've seen it before but its too good to pass up.
early 80's horror flick.
it still has some parts that make you jump,
but i love the corniness of it.
the mad fake looking zombies,
the sub-par acting.
it all is just fun.

i'm eating parmesan goldfish as well.
just enjoying the night.
by myself.
and my computer screen.
and some sick headphones.

.forcepush.

-Lnk-

dinkin donita

band practice....
kick arse.
just jammed.
it was sweet.
we vibed on something that i wrote.
so much fun.

then we headed to dunkin donuts.
it was a nice establishment.
possibly the nicest D&D's i've seen.

we messed with photo booth,
i've done it before but it was hilarious.
like laugh out loud, clapping, holding your gut.
funny, funny, funny.

then we made like little middle schoolers
and sat in the bed of my truck and watched crud try to kick-flip.
it was fun,
we laughed,
and just enjoyed this shatty SoFla weather.

great night even with my lady gone.

.diminished.

-Lnk-

milk, cream and alcohol

because of this man and this song,
i can sleep tonight



.thanksjohnlee.

-Lnk-

so it was good

JIM PROPOSED!!!

i love the office and i'm so excited that its back.
watched the first episode today.
i was looking forward to it all afternoon.
it picked up right where season 4 left off.
great stuff.
so happy for Jim and Pam.

but my girl is nowhere to be found.
she hasn't returned my calls.
hopefully i'll get to talk to her tonight.

.beermeahigh5.

-Lnk-

i can smell it arriving

fall is making it's way down here.
you can feel it, sense it.
the morning are getting cooler
and the nights are showing up quicker.
it is a welcomed change of pace.

it's funny how the change in weather can change your attitude.

had lunch with my driving buddy and his jazz band friend.
this cat was cool.
he is from Costa Rica.
we discussed student visas,
taxes, dialects and quiznos.
we planned on hanging out tomorrow.
i hope we can.
i get excited when i meet new people.
when we sit down and talk about stuff
besides school.

so i'm excited for manana.
the prospect of new friends
and cool, crisp weather.

.perfecto.

-Lnk-

plane ticket to the sun

i'm going to board the first flight into the star.
maybe if i leave soon enough i can leave everything behind.
the cockpit would melt and so would all that i've done.

"A spaceman. They say I am… a spaceman.
Planets everywhere... my own destiny… I’m floating towards the sun.
The sun of nothing. Floating towards the sun, the sun of nothing. I have become the sun of nothing.
Nothing is here. Memories are not clear.
Floating to the sun… farther away.
I can't believe that’s what it has come to... I never really had it all that bad.
I just looked around and never thought about the blank stares."
-"Sun of Nothing" Between the Buried and Me

-Lnk-

taxi driver

'i ain't square, you're square man."

taxi driver, good movie.
sad movie.
i'm a B-list movie buff.
spending all my time that i would have spent with you,
watching movies.
trying to hit up all the classics.
venturing into the 80's.
sci-fi specifiaclly.

now i just eat chocolate chips out of the bag.
there is no need in coating them in a candy shell.
just eat em.
they are so good.

who needs M&M's?
not me.
i love chocolate.
and i love movies.

movies made of chocolate would be awesome.

de niro is a good actor,
but his expressions stay the same.
the eyebrows
curved lips
the way he breathes out of his nose.
he's good.

well that's all i have for tonight.

.palantine.

-Lnk-

i like destroyed stuff/don't tell me how to work a blender

i have an odd affinity for destroyed stuff,
broken electronics, musical instruments, burned down/abandoned houses.
anything that is worn, old, broken and/or completely decimated.
i find an eerie beauty in these things.
houses that have been left alone,
whether they be in busy cities
or quiet suburbs.
they are quiet beautiful in their brokenness.

next, don't tell me how to run a damn blender!!
i worked one for a whole year,
get back in your room.
AWWWWWWWWW
friggin heck.

thirdly, i love you honey.
know you are loved.
know that i am flawed
and that you are everything that is good in me.

.iloveyou.

-Lnk-

Today is day one

as much as i want to look,
i can't anymore.
i need to fight and want to fight.

i read a friends blog,
she reminded me that it is possible
it is possible to put 2 months between you and your sin.

her and i were supposed to have at night in MIA,
she was tired and my phone was shot.
but tomorrow i will see her and hug her.
she is my encouragment, my older sister.
she's real.
she's the bees knees.

thank you.
you will never know what your words mean to me.

.nobreadorcoke.

-Lnk-

unapologetic and very aggressive
its probably what i need
i've put you on the back burner
unintentionally and now you are hurt

once again i apologize
i offer no excuses
only that i'm sorry
and i'm not a great boyfrien

we did it one year
but year is two is taking an early strain
i just want to make to see you

-Lnk-

hey there baby, why don't we just both give up
hey there baby, promise you'll be what i see when i wake up
i thought maybe you could be my girl
and i might be your guy
we could quit the world's plans for us
and actually learn the art of lying
in a field and enjoying the breeze
needing nothing but the time we have
spending it with you spending it with me
close your eyes
grasp your pillow
i'll be there
under the tree in your dreams
holding our lives at the seams
hoping it all makes some sense
that we were never made for this distance
my heart was never meant to stretch
and now i see why God calls us sinners
cause i am

hey there baby, come home quicker than last years time
hey there baby, i'll be alone until you arrive
nothing will help the pain
not a phone call
not a digital impression
nothing will ease my mind
till your lips are on mine

until you arrive
i'll be the kid in the back of the class
keeping his head down to the desk
hoping that he can just do enough to pass
i'll be the quiet in a room full of people
where you don't feel you belong
or when everyone goes out drinking
i'll be the feeling you feel of alone

"I will. Is it bad or good?"

that's up for you to decide sweet cheeks

.washedmyface.

-Lnk-

share the moon

i wanted to share the moon with you,
the clouds covered parts of it and made it mysterious.
i have my sins and pains to deal with,
but seeing the moon so shady and dark made me feel alright.

we played music to a song a girl wrote.
it was beautiful.
3 guitars, 2 voices, 1 piano.
it was off the cuff,
it was unplanned.
it was perfect.
she sang so perfectly
we played along to her simple chords
we memorized her melody.
it was fun.

without that, tonight would've been a loss.

.should'veputhimincustardy.

-Lnk-

disenfranchised (don't know if that's one word)

so in my stand against bad music,
i have discovered that some bands have stupid members.
should i not listen to their music because the members are mentally deficient?
it stinks to look up an interview vid from a band that you enjoy,
only to hear them just be dumb.

now while i'm not the sharpest tool in the box,
i have other aspirations besides smoking weed and bumping uglies.
i guess its just disappointing to see muscians so stupid in other facets besides music.

someone who i look up to told me i was unique.
i think that is better than being told you are handsome or whatever.
do not misread me.
i don't go out of my way to be different.
i am not who i am cause someone told me to.
basically, i do not have to try to be me.
i am just josh link.

that made me smile.
love me or hate me.
its just josh link.

.foxyshazam.

-Lnk-

again....in class

so blogging again from the same class.
i have this girl sitting in front of me.
she has a ponytail
i can't stop staring at her ponytail.
hair is so weird/cool.

this particular girls hair is dark brown,
on the verge of black.
her ponytail looks so straight.

my hair, when long, gets curly.
DNA man.
its the only reason i'm not the girl i'm speaking about.
cause, my dad met my mom, and did the no-pants dance (gross)
their DNA made me.

weird to think i was once small enough to fit in a belly.
now i'm grown, i'm big now.
and its all because some dioxyribonucleicacids decided that i would be me.

God invented DNA.
He constructed it.
Hold on...... He???
Is God a person,
God is our creator,
i create pictures/music/Lego creatures
but i am not either of them.
i cannot be any of those things

Can a creator create something that is the same as itself?
we are made in His image, we are not minature God's.

we (the human race), have made robots, cloned sheep.
that robot, those sheep cannot comprehend us.
they do not understand us.
sheep recognize us.
they stop if we stand in their way,
they come when called.

i believe, using this line of thinking, that we cannot label God as a He/His.
i recognize God, but i cannot understand God.

therefore i will no longer refer to God with either a He or His
or anything alng those lines.

.toomuchthinkinginclass.

-Lnk-

i have no clue about girls clothes

everyone wants indie, they want 100 percent
but my shirts are only 50/50, i can't afford that much to give.
would you still love me if i don't want to dance,
or i'm not the first to sing.
or my temper gets the best and i get mad at anything.

i'm too jealous for my own good,
don't me tell that i should change.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
lets be cool, lets talk like we know what we're saying.
this show, that club, this shirt, that girl.
skinny till it hurts,
skinny jeans and skinny girls.

to repeat the words of a modern day thinker:
"Now come on everybody let’s make cocaine cool,
We need a few more half naked women up in the pool."

is that all you got,
seriously?!
i need more.
i.
i.
i.

i am so conceited

.butthatmoonisdamnbright.

-Lnk-

my christmas carol

jolly ole saint nicholas, lean your ear this way.
i don't want a present this year, but i have something to say.
you know johnny wants a picture book
and susie wants a doll.
but i want something much much bigger
a house and maybe even a home.
i want mom to kiss me before i sleep
and dad to cut my food up for me
a mother to scold me when i'm bad
and a father to laugh when the mood is to overly sad.
i want presents underneath an evergreen tree
i want more than money can buy, i want someone to love me.

i was left at these doorsteps,
in a damp, wet box.
and held my voice till i was 4,
no one loved me and no one said hi,
so no one deserved my vocal recognition.

bring me a family, with sisters to defend me.
against the evils of life and everything outside this dusty window.
send me someone to say, "Good job, we are proud of you."
send me someone for me to say, " I love you."

.hoptoitredclothedfatso.

-Lnk-

getting edumacated

so i'm putting up this blog while i'm in class.
bored so i'm using the iPhone to its full capabilities.
i can't take these pixels anymore. dammit

i can't take this. there is so much more, but I can't look past what i see.
i just can't do this to myself. this can't happen again. and nothing i do tonight
will asuage this sick feeling in my stomach.

like i've been discovered wrong. i want to go buy a million books
and lock myself in my room. i want to escape my thoughts with other
people giving me thoughts to fill my head with. i'm sick

you would ask "what's wrong?" and i would answer that i'm worried that
i'm yesterdays news. what happened down here disappears as quickly
as the pain appeared.

i've been loosening my vocabulary and trying to work on trust. its all good
when company is around, but walk outside the door, and i can't see you.

all i can say is that i've ruined my days, and my nights are as equally dark. - c.l. Wegmann

-Lnk-

i'm not that selfless

even though you are smiling,
and the faces around you are the same,
i am not that selfless.

you come for awhile,
leave with what i've given to you,
and i'm not that sefless.

it hurts to even see you doing good.
cause i'm giving what i gave to you away.
i'm giving it to an island of which i'm not to fond of.

i want that here,
i want what i gave here.
i'm not that selfless.

.imissyou.

-Lnk-

watchmen

"It is the oldest ironies that are still the most satisfying: man, when preparing for bloody war, will orate loudly and most eloquently in the name of peace. This dichotomy is not an invention of the 20th century, yet it is in this century that the most striking examples of the phenomena have appeared. Never before has man pursued global harmony more vocally while amassing stockpiles of weapons so devastating in their effect. The second world war- we were told-was The War To End Wars. The development of the atomic bomb is the Weapon to End Wars.
And yet wars continue." - Watchmen

this is an excerpt from the graphic novel Watchmen. i heard about this book while asking some friends about the movie that is coming out titled, Watchmen. it is based on this novel. i read some of it and felt obliged to buy it, its just that good. a graphic novel is just a beefed up comic book, but this is some grade-A reading.

the story, or what i've understood it to be so far, is about an fictional American society set in 1985. in this America, regular people have dawned costumes and taken justice in their own hands. it deals with these peoples problems and trials that have arisen because of their choices.

its good. like intriguing, stay up late till you fall asleep reading it good.

different note.

ever since McCain chose Sarah Palin as his running mate, i've been paying attention to politics. i've been purty knowledgeable about whats going on, but when her name was announced, i actually wanted to pay attention.

i watched some of the RNC (republican national convention), wasn't too bad. only thing i didn't like was the commentary in between the speeches. after Mit Romney was done the reporters tore his speech apart and were questioning everything and just jerks. like seriously, if i got on stage and gave a speech about whatever, and when i was done all i heard were people talking about how i was wrong or what they didn't like, i would drag their lazy asses on stage and have them make a speech.

let me sit in your booth and pick apart your views and tell you why you are wrong.

at least wait a day or two.

what also bothers me is that you can get so many different viewpoints on anything varying from news channel to news channel. its sickening.

but that's politics. i just watched the speeches, and flipped the channel. if i liked the speech, i liked it. i didn't want to hear what dude with grey hair and some fancy mike on his head said about it. that was his opinion. i don't shove mine down his throat so show me some courtesy by not throwing yours at me.

Mike Huckabee was good. called Obama's experience into question. i think that is the major downfall to Obama. he's charismatic and can draw a crowd unlike any other politician, but he hasn't really done anything.

now my girl and i were having a discussion about politics and we shared our views on each side, we agreed here.....and disagreed there. once again, her opinion.....and i'm blessed to have a beautiful woman who can actually think for herself.

but all issues aside, i want someone who has experience. who has a record we can look back on. i wouldn't mind Obama going back to the Senate and making some moves. i don't want to vote for a president if i don't know who he is.

he can tell you who he is, but i can tell you that i can do a cartwheel. if you knew me, you'd know i never took gymnastics ever and have never shown any potential that i can perform any stunt remotely close to cartwheel.

Obama says he is going to bring change, but what has he done to show that. nothing. he hasn't been around long enough, i'd like some meat on my potential president's bones. i don't want someone who i'm hoping will be a good leader.

McCain has been through hell and back and has legislation under his belt. now while i might not agree with all the choices he's made, i know he passed laws. that he stands for something. not because he says he does, but because his track record shows this.

now, don't take away that i'm voting for McCain. only when i walk into the booth to vote, will i know for sure who's name i'm going to select.

and please don't assume i'm voting Republican. bump that. i'm going to vote for who i think is most qualified to run our country.

if that candidate happens to be on the Democrat ticket, then i'm voting for him.

i think, i know, these party lines do more to divide our country then anything else.

.damnthatwaslong.....sorry.

-Lnk-

i am gomer

tonight, more clearly than any other,
i realize i am gomer.
God has loved me even though i run to other suitors.
He continuously tells me i am loved and that He is all i need.

but i still search for the instant gratification of anything around.

i'm sorry Hosea,
i'm sorry Hosanna......
i'm sorry Father.

forgive me and keep me safe and sane as i sleep.

.................

-Lnk-

i'm unrighteous

i'm undeserving.
i'm what you scrap off your feet.
i'm what people wave off.

i'm so afraid of what i am.

-Lnk-

i rested

i slept in today....not too much.
just till around 10.
i plan to sleep later tonight.
school is killer.
she left this morning.
i miss her.
but she'll be fine,
we made it through one year,
we can do two.

all houses aren't made on concrete,
although they should be.
slowly our society adds more and more water to the mix,
eventually its all water and the houses collapse whenever they second guess themselves.
they crash and fall in on their walls,
after the dust clears they are left with frames,
broken boards, nails.....emptiness.

but we can stop this,
we can stop this watering down.
we can make our own, start from scratch.
solid foundation, having the house believe it was made for a purpose.
it's not here for decoration, to have the coolest in it.
it was made to house Our Savior.

we are so much more than we think we are.
we are so much.....we are nothing.
we are empty until we see that He is everything.

.dontsellyourselfshort.

-Lnk-

do i need to explain it again

today was up and down.
just like my ride.
never steady and paced,
just up and back down.

i jumped the gun,
and got shot by the bullet.
wanted more than i could handle,
and got less than what i hoped for.

goodnight michigan.

-Lnk-

nothing gets me

like pictures do.
i see people who were one thing before,
and now are so obsessed with plastic red and blues.
i've changed, but not a 180.
i don't think i have.

well got to go to work
and watch kids being kids.

.lovetherain.

-Lnk-

good times

good food,
good friends,
good movie,
smokin' hot girl on my arm.

school is paid off!!!!
at least for this semester.
now to sleep.

-Lnk-

the awkward silence

i know tropical storm's and hurricanes bring pain to many people,
but living through more than a handful of them,
i've found the bright side to these storms.

before the storm, everything quiets down.
roads are less crowded, and at least in my house,
there is an uneasiness.
my mom gets a little frantic.
its windy, the rain flows in sheets,
the street lights reflect off the slick concrete
and creates this eerie feeling that you are on the edge of something.
something bigger than yourself.

the storm grows stronger and the winds pick up.
lawn chairs that were forgotten are soon caught in the gales.
the sky is oddly a light grey
and the clouds are dancing where they usually stand still.
if one were to venture outside,
depending on the category of the storm,
you can actually feel mother nature psychically pushing you.
you can feel her hands grabbing you to join her in her fun.

the eye,
its quick, brings a short calm.
its a beautiful break in the calamity.
its gone.

afterwards,
its quiet again.
branches are strewn about,
random puddles are in uncharted territory.
if your house loses power,
your windows will be open.
suddenly your entire house will smell like the outdoors.
a warm, musty fragrance.
sticks on your clothes, furniture, blankets, bedsheets.
its wonderful.

taking a short ride after the storm is an adventure.
it reminds me of Silent Hill,
empty streets, broken trees, garbage cans;
basically anything that wasn't held down
now decorates the roads and appreciates the feeling of being noticed.
the sky is still grey
and the clouds that lagged behind are racing to catch up.

its nostalgic, unique, inspiring, quieting,
lovely, scary.
its what i've grown up around.
its amazing to see what God's creation is capable of.

.theofficeisstillawesome.

-Lnk-

growing up

hopefully i've made some progress somewhere.
but i found DOS again.
its wonderful.
games that i couldn't complete before are still challenging.
the old white text on the black background,
simple commands c:, install.exe
brings back so many memories.

and i don't know how anyone else feels
but i don't care much at all for the olympics.
i used to back when dominique was around.
but no thanks now.

tropic thunder: A-

just waiting for tomorrow

-Lnk-

its too late

Employer: the_crud

Position: mash keys together till they no longer resemble themselves

Description:
find all the noises in the world,
pick out the ones that would sound good together,
marry them under electronic signals and wacked out samples,
translate them to english,
release them on cd's,
make humans realize that we were meant for more than our average of 80 years.

City/Town: lying between the troposphere and mars

its 3:35 am
go to myspace.com/crudbot
enjoi

-Lnk-

found a great way to sum America

How does that old joke go? “This is your captain speaking; I’ve got good news and bad news. The bad news is that we’re lost . . . I have no idea where we are. But the good news . . . we’re making exceptionally good time.”
-Pat Boone

we've lost our moral compass,
we are a young country wandering the landscape,
filling our pockets with whatever looks good.
we're hoping that those things will keep us happy for this day.
we are knee deep in credit card debt,
and are hearts are as empty as our bank accounts.
and we'll be damned if someone tells us different.
we start little debates within our country,
and that keeps us occupied enough to not look at the rest of the world.

i'm just pessimistic tonight.
and its all some pixels fault.

.peevedoff.

-Lnk-

let me get on my soapbox

what must i do to show that i detest culture's music and push to make us like it.
not just the music, the clothes, the way we "should" wear them, the image they want us to potray.
i just hate it.
so i'll amuse myself.

.chill, we're crumping.
.hahahaha, be real.

-Lnk-

theodore roosevelt

quote on honesty:

"We cannot afford to differ on the question of honesty
if we expect our republic permanently to endure.
Honesty is not so much a credit as an absolute prerequisite
to efficient service to the public.
Unless a man is honest, we have no right to keep him in public life;
it matters not how brilliant his capacity."

.think about that.

-Lnk-

synders pretzel and cheese sandwiches

well tuesday and friday are my blogging days on the crudbot myspace site.
check it out kids:
crudbot's myspace
verse for today- Romans 7:15
starting the office from season 1 through 4.
i'm so excited for season 5
YEA!!!!!
i just heard thunder and i throughly enjoy rainy afternoons.
and i'm sweaty from running.

.189&counting.

-Lnk-

i have been neglecting

this blog.
life has been quit tumultuous,
but tonight was crazy.
recording tracks with my new band.

ridiculous.
totally screwing up sounds and tearing it apart.

can't wait for this ep to be done.
these songs sounds so purty.

but life has been up and down.
my best friend left for college,
but my girl and i have had time to spend together.
i'm tired.
i'm musically pooped out.
i'll update tomorrow.

.kidturbo.

-Lnk-

found it

found your blog, i read it
i'm purty sure you wouldn't want me to find it.
but your asleep,
like usual.

nothing has changed,
and hopefully nothing does.
you are gorgeous asleep.
your _________

i have no words.
you make me speechless.
i love you.

.607.

-Lnk-

p.s.

but i sure know how to ruin everything

-Lnk-

give it up big apple

No love for no beach, baby that's law
But she doesn't see, therefore I spoil
I trick, I fall, run up in raw
I love her with all my heart
Every vein, every vessel, every bullet lodged
With every flower that I ever took apart
-Lupe Fiasco "The Coolest"

so today was cool.
people came over.
not too many.
i didn't want it to be a bajillion people running around.

at first it was a couple.
just 4.
we sat around and talked and had a good time laughing.
then some more showed up.
then some others.

we ate pizza,
swam in the lake,
played guitar hero
and ate some cake.

it was nice just celebrating 10 years of friendship.
and having other friends around.

but it will always happen.

"they say you can't always please everyone,
and last night all those people were at my show."
-the late great Mitch Hedberg

so yeah,
i'll make you frown.
even piss you off.

"i tried walking into Target and i missed."
-Mitch Hedberg

.target-attention.
.blikkish.

-Lnk-

step brothers

i couldn't think of another movie to watch,
to watch with my best friend of 10 years.
i haven't laughed that hard in a theater in a long time.
laughed till i cried.
honestly

we walked out of the movie at 2 am
but we couldn't stop laughing.

its good that things are ending this way.
on laughter.

tomorrow we are having our 10 year anniversary party.
we've been best friends for 10 whole years.
and he stood by my side through some crazy tough times.
and i look forward to our future.

i know he'll be off in school and i'll be here trying to finish up as soon as possible,
but we'll talk on the phone.
its just going to hurt.
not having my girl down here,
or my boy.

so i'll just have to keep active and positive.
its going to be tough.

but man,
that movie was hilarious.

i miss my baby so badly.
she called me a couple nights back and i was tired.
i've been crappy to her lately.
i've been treating her like i'm just putting up with her.
but this time away from her has shown me how much she means to me.

there are some times when i feel like honestly,
i'd rather lay down and just wait for the day to leave me behind.
i know if she were there, she pick me up
and gently encourage to do what i got to do.

she doesn't get back for another week,
and i need her now more than ever.

i just get so easily scared.

i know she'd make me feel safe.

.boats n hoes.

-Lnk-

its over

said Im gonna buy this place and burn it down
Im gonna put it six feet underground
He said Im gonna buy this place and watch it fall
Stand here beside me baby in the crumbling walls
Oh Im gonna buy this place and start a fire
Stand here until I fill all your hearts desires
Because Im gonna buy this place and see it burn
Do back the things it did to you in return
Ah,ah,ah
He said oh Im gonna buy a gun and start a war
If you can tell me something worth fighting for
Oh and Im gonna buy this place, thats what I said
Blame it upon a rush of blood to the head

And honey
All the movements youre starting to make
See me crumble and fall on my face
And I know the mistakes that I made
See it all disappear without a trace
And they call as they beckon you on
They say start as you mean to go on
Start as you mean to go on

He said Im gonna buy this place and see it go
Stand here beside me baby watch the orange glow
Somell laugh and some just sit and cry
But you just sit down there and you wonder why
So Im gonna buy a gun and start a war
If you can tell me something worth fighting for
Im gonna buy this place, thats what I said
Blame it upon a rush of blood to the head

And honey
All the movements youre starting to make
See me crumble and fall on my face
And I know the mistakes that I made
See it all disappear without a trace
And they call as they beckon you on
They said start as you mean to go on
As you mean to go on, as you mean to go on

So meet me by the bridge, meet me by the lane
When am I going to see that pretty face again
Meet me on the road, meet me where I said
Blame it all upon
A rush of blood to the head

.coldplay.

-Lnk-

i'm thinking

i'm thinking over something i had thought i knew before.
saw capote tonight.
it was good, but slow, but good.
found a renewed sense in coldplay.
they are good for nights of contemplation.

that sounded so stupid,
well i can be at times.
and i am now.

helping a friend out

.hurts you sometimes.

-Lnk-

baby come back

i didn't think i'd miss you this much,
but i need you back already.

i had it out today,
it felt good letting ____ know how i felt.
that doesn't happen much around here.
mainly because i just don't say anything.

but i'm going to the movies tonight to see a movie i don't really care for,
but its with a friend,
so it's all good.

baby come back

-Lnk-

long truck ride back

so we went to eat at my boi's house in boca,
quite a drive.
it was cool though.
had some good food and good convo.'s

on the way back, we kind of got in a fight.
it wasn't that i was mad at her,
just mad at the way she views herself.
i screamed at her,
yelled some obscenities.
its the only way i could get my point across.

i'm sorry

.i'mlame.

-Lnk-

know when to call it

know when to call it a day,
when its time to just go home.

when your lungs are burning with week old dust.

.go home.

-Lnk-

i will spend

"don't push me cause i'm close to the edge,
i'm trying not to lose my head."
-Mel E Mel

yeah so the show was awesome last night.
i'm still sick.
i wake up feeling like frankenstein.
my joints don't work,
my neck is crooked
and my spine feels 15 times to big for my body.

as the day wears on,
the pain wears off.

but the show was sick.
i enjoyed myself.
i have a lot to learn
and i'm ready to.

got to go to bed and make an attempt at sleep.
have work at 8am

yippy!!

-Lnk-

beyond the neon forest

martin luther king never changed the country.
he affected the people around him, and in doing so,
changed our nation.

i can vote for obama, mccain or ronald mcdonald.
they are not responsible for me.
i am responsible for me.
i cannot run to the government to take care of me.
i need to make sure i can provide for myself.

the government is here to protect us,
not to allow us to be lazy and have them make decisions for us.

i cannot and will never change my city, state, region etc.......
i can live and share with the people around me.

i can never save anyone.
the Holy Spirit changes peoples hearts.

we as a people, we as a nation
and even as far as we as a church;
will never impact our generation,
we will never change history
if we fail to see the people in front of us.

we are looking to far ahead into the future.
technically the future is always a second ahead of us.

if we stopped looking ahead and just looked into the eyes of those around us,
then we can learn about people,
share our pains and joys with them,
make memories, make inside jokes,
be real and live.

we need to stop worrying about getting our names into the history books,
we just need to recognize the folks God has allowed us to be with.

.rudcot.

-Lnk-

bomb it

went to waffle house late last night,
hung out with a good ole country friend of mine.

nearly passed out at work.

i miss when i had to write alot in these blogs.
but summer has been chill and allowed me to do the same.

i want to bomb so bad.
wish i was artistically inclined.

oh well, i can play guitar at least.

.cornbread.

-Lnk-

i cannot

i can't go to bed before 3 am.
its impossible

-Lnk-

breaking

maybe if i was a game,
bounced small round objects off my hand
and against walls.
maybe you'd be addicted to me?

.bitcrushedbreaker.

-Lnk-

practice, again

despite my best efforts to thwart today,
it was awesome.
we cranked out this four song medley.
the show is going to be sick.

but i will just keep turning my back on you.
you are pursuing me.
but some days i want you and others i could care less.

-Lnk-

just to be big

it seems that you arrange stuff to get attention.
hangouts, so you can make the jokes.
i don't know how this works.
i just feel icky, like they all still have some primordial ooze on top of their skin.
it doesn't feel right driving around,
and it sure doesn't feel right stepping on the grounds.

but who am i to judge?
i'm dirtier than anyone.
but i still don't like it.
it's not a grudge i'm holding,
its an opinion held by me and others whose names you've trashed.
for what reason you trashed us,
don't know.
and i doubt you even know yourself.
its just too easy to gossip,
and its kind of fun.

today can be awful or awesome.
depends on what happens with 3 people.
but my days mood shouldn't be dictated by what happens.
i'll be content cause i am,
not because you are healed.

.but that's what we're praying for.

-Lnk-

muzak

so i played with some crazy musicians.
i was beyond nervous to play with them seeing as they are uber better than me.
its like playing basketball with jordan and dr. j
but it went swimmingly.

we practice again on tuesday.

i'm tired.
i'll be back soon.

-Lnk-

moo, baa and other noises that make animals taste so good

vegetarian, vegans.
been hearing a lot of those words lately.
from those i work with, to ones i love.
i respect people who say they take a stand in something,
and actually stand for it.
so saying that,
here is my stance with this whole vegetarian thing.

God made man to name the animals,
not the other way around.
animals were made to be our pets, our instruments to work with
ours.
to eat, to play along with.
all that stuff.

now saying that,
i don't think animals should cruelly killed.
i believe that you shouldn't keep a baby calf in a pen all its life
so its muscles don't get exercised and its meat is more tender.
i don't believe animals should be fed steroids or hormones.

now when the animals are killed,
i do believe it should be killed quickly and with no pain.

in looking up this subject,
i found an article that sums this up nicely.
it deals with more of the question of Do Animals Have Souls.
it also touches on them being our equals,
and what position that leaves us in using the Bible as our reference.
this is bits and pieces of the article,
read the whole article for yourself:

If you ever owned a dog, a cat, or any other kind of animal to which you grew attached, you may have wondered whether or not that animal had a soul. Men and women through the ages have pondered the same question. Animals— whose vast numbers stretch into the millions—are ubiquitous as our co-inhabitants on planet Earth. They serve as an unpaid, ever-dependable, and quite invaluable work force as they help the farmer plow a rough field or the blind person cross a busy city street. They account for a considerable portion of the total world food supply for humans. They provide joy and companionship for young and old alike. They are an undeniable boon to mental health, especially for sick children and the infirm elderly. Surely none among us would doubt the many benefits that accrue as a result of the presence of animals among us.

This type of thinking—that men and animals both possess “inherent value equally”—has set the stage for those who profess a belief in God to set forth their claim that animals do indeed possess immortal souls. In his book, All Creatures Here Below, Frank Hoffman stated:

...if the animal sacrifice is the precursor, or type of the final sacrifice of our Lord and Savior, which is a mainstream Christian teaching, is God’s Word not also telling us that animals do have souls?... Now then, why are we reluctant to accept the fact that animals do have souls? Because we are still trying to hold on to some of our pride, and perhaps our greed. If we do not accept the fact that animals have souls, then we may have a self-acceptable excuse for the way we treat the rest of God’s creatures, which is not in accordance with God’s desire, but ours (1998, emp. added).

The position advocated by such writers is completely at odds with the teaching found in God’s Word. First, man and animals do not share kinship—all the claims of evolutionists (and those sympathetic to them) notwithstanding. The apostle Paul addressed this very point in 1 Corinthians 15 when he wrote: “All flesh is not the same flesh: but there is one flesh of men, and another flesh of beasts, and another flesh of birds, and another of fishes” (v. 15, emp. added). As Stuart Walker correctly commented: “Genesis 1:26-30 and 2:7,21-25 clearly states that man was a special creation with no phylogenetic relationship to any other creature. Thus, there is a phylogenetic discontinuity between man and animals—we are not physically interrelated” (1991, 5[2]:21, emp. added). As Adam previewed the animals in the Garden of Eden for a mate and went about naming them (Genesis 2:18-20), this “discontinuity” became clear. Among all the animals that God had created, there was none that corresponded to him. Not one sufficed to remove him from his personal isolation of being “alone” (Genesis 2:18)

Second, man was commanded to “subdue and have dominion over the fish of the sea, and over the birds of the heavens, and over every living thing that moveth upon the earth” (Genesis 1:28). The Hebrew word for “subdue” (kabash) is described in Strong’s Exhaustive Concordance as meaning “to tread down,” “to bring under subjection,” etc. The same word is used in Numbers 32:22, 29 and Joshua 18:1 where it is used to describe the subduing and pacifying of Israel’s enemies.

Man alone was created “in the image and likeness of God” something that may not be said of animals. he key is found in Genesis 1:26-28, 2:18-25, and 9:5-7; it is that only man is created in the image of God.”

But do animals have souls? Animals may be said to have souls—if the word “soul” is used as the Bible employs it in discussing members of the animal kingdom (i.e., to describe only the physical life force found within all living creatures). But if the word “soul” is used to refer to an immortal soul that one day will inhabit heaven or hell, then no, animals may not be said to possess a soul. This is the only conclusion that can be drawn, respecting the instruction on the subject found within the Word of God.

well that's alot of stuff.
and that's all i have to say about that.

-Lnk-

laughs and frowns

tonight was awesome.
went to Coco Walk and hit up the Miami Improv.
great stuff.
we laughed so damn hard.

just a great time.

then "skinny is pretty."
i'm done.
i love you.

.done.

-Lnk-

july 11th

be there.
cause i will be.

playing with my new band.
crudbot.
sickness.

.sing o daughter, o zion.

-Lnk-

winning

i play halo 3.
a lot.
like too much.
its fun, its competitive, its loud.
shooting, grenades, hiding places.
its good.

but i was holding my dog and sitting on our diving board and
wondering why i don't like to not be first when i play.
its just a game.
for fun right, just a good time.
but then why do i need to be first?

why do i have that need to be the best at everything?
many people are much better at most everything.
why can't i just realize that i can be mediocre.

its just odd, that whole need to be the best.
not just cause that's my life's goal.
like i want to be the world's best javelin thrower,
so i practice all my life and make it to the Olympics.
they deserve it.

but like my want to be the best to tell everyone else that i am,
so i can be the best.

this flesh and its wants and desires,
weird.
i just want it to die.

.agent michael scarn- threat level midnight.

-Lnk-

how lucky i am

so you take down what My son died on,
why?
so you don't offend people.
I am truth.

what happened to the person who gave all they had,
but all they had was not a thousand dollars.
it was a penny.
their hearts were and are pure.
where is their banquet?
where is their invitation?

why do you give crooked harsh answers
to straight honest questions?

why do you continually run back to the pig's trough?
I have a feast, I have Living Water.
yet you run back to the things that leave you hungry.
that leave you hurt.

I should let you die.
let you lie in your own grave that you have dug.
let you breathe in the dirt and let it clog up your lungs.
you deserve what you deserve.

how lucky i am that i am not God.

.see you later pan.

-Lnk-

i just said it, can you believe me?

backwards and inverted.
i want i want
i need i need.

call me greedy,
call me a jerk.
i am getting quieter.
i am finding my corner and staying there.

i don't want to.

.are you serious, he was here? when i was talking to the fake tina fey?.

-Lnk-

the beginning

i hate gnats.
i had every intention to enjoy this nice afternoon.
i got on my bike, pumped some jams and started pedaling.
damn gnats were everywhere.
i kept running into them, they were getting in my eyes, ears, on my shirt.
yuck

so i had to turn around and cancel the whole schabang!
~~~~~~~~~~~~
but your kisses brought me back.
i love you.
and you shouldn't hate yourself.
you are great.
smile.

.king of the stupid universe.

-Lnk-

camp, quick recap

it was awesome.
made some great friendships,
got covered in more condiments than ever before.
played signs and witnessed the consumption of some atrocious food.
learned that everything happens for a reason
and that to enjoy life, you need to enjoy today.

i danced for an entire crowd,
that will most likely never happen again.
i was the leader of the Flaming Hot Cheetos
and lead the team to victory everyday.
i sang louder and lost my voice quicker.

people listened when i spoke,
and had actual things to say back.

i'm so lucky, nay, blessed to have gone.
i'm just sad that it ended so soon.

.dddddddoooooooossssssssshhhhhhhhh.

-Lnk-

the stars and flight

i walked out back and just sat down.
i embarrassed myself.
so i looked at the stars.
i closed my eyes and thought how cool it would be to fly.
just to swoop over the lake,
float over 75.
just fly right out of here and out of my life for a second.

and again i wake up to an empty house.
i don't mind it, i actually kind of enjoy it.
but at sometime i'd like someone here.
to just be with.
to help me mow the lawn.
someone to cook lunch for.

the dog is here, but she doesn't do much beside sleep.
just me, here and the 360.

.that'll do pig, that'll do.

-Lnk-

i'm a victim

of my own demise.
~~~~~
i tried to talk tonight.
i think i did purty well.
it was fun.
thanks so much for driving back for me.

but i am still the architect for my prison.

-Lnk-

covers over your fingers children, no cheating

how do you spell war using love,
or peace using the letters found in gun.
i thought america was spelled as such,
i have realized that it is spelled money.

i was taught not to cheat,
but no one told me that it was permissible.
so we'll build a boat with too many sails,
we can hope the wind will catch us.
those ideas that carry us to wherever they do,
those are the ones we will believe.
~~~~~~~~
i've seen your eyes dark sky gray,
and i've seen your smile as bright as the sun rays.

-Lnk-

just checking

i'm disappointed.
so many of you so willingly just turn about face and do what you're doing.
you most likely will never read this,
but it still hurts me nonetheless.

i thought i knew you,
and now, well, its not the same.

-Lnk-

august

They don't have an extravagant story of how they met. It wouldnt sell in theatres. He didnt rescue her from life. They just found each other. In this vast ocean of people, God saw it fit for them to find each other. They just spoke. They hung out in a parking lot and spoke. They sing. Not together as much as he'd like, but they do. She sings like an angel, he sang to find one. He sings now, but only for and about her. She still sings just not using music. She walks, she laughs, she smiles, she says 'I love you' the sweetest song of all. Like I said, their story isn't epic. Its just them. Their story isn't extravagant but their love is. He loves her more then she'll ever know. And she is all his. There isn't much wrong. Hell, there isn't anything wrong. Today she said, 'the sun is gorgeous!' he agreed, not outloud but he agreed. And then he thought, 'so are you'. He didnt say it, don't know why he didnt say it, he regrets it. But she is gorgeous, she really is. If you could meet her, you'd agree. She is perfect. Not the air-brushed magazine girl, she is genuine beauty. Classical, like the beauty you find in old black and whites. Like the sun on the water, right when its setting, and the sky is purple. She is just natural beauty. She doesn't have to try. She wakes up beautiful. And he is lucky. He is nothing more than a wishful thinker. He has great ideas, high hopes and more to figure out than he knows. But he knows he's in love. In love with the most wonderful woman/girl God has ever graced this earth with. Like aforementioned, he is lucky. And she is royal.

He loves her more than she'll ever know, and he will always tell her that he does.

-Lnk-

the internet

is too funny to me.
f&m make me laugh.
yt is ridiculous.
cry and complain, comment.
its funny.
and its actually quite sad.
oh well,
i digress.
and so does everyone else.

.slowly going the way of the buffalo.

-Lnk-

i'm am

second,
plan b,
the night time,
after the rest,
just in case,
if perchance,
if there's time,
maybe just maybe.

.and i'm comfortable here.

-Lnk-

surprise

most everyone lets me down sometime or another,
but every night You always surprise.
the sky never changes,
but its still perfect.
the moon was in new york before i was,
and was shining on my house before i crossed the state line.

You are more beautiful and difficult to understand than anyone.
if i ever forget that, all i have to do is step outside.
i love it.
its the chase.
like when you find that girl you like,
you chase her.
not in the stalker way.
you just make sure you sit next to her.
you find out what she likes,
you make yourself available if she needs to talk.
thats what it is.

its that chasing of You that keeps me joyful.
~~~~~~~

i saw the other end of what i am tonight.
i saw death.
but it wasn't as awful sounding as the word itself paints.
it was simply put,
soft.
the light blue casket,
my friend singing through her tears,
the silver cross in the casket,
the family hugging and holding.
it was surreal and i wish i could've told them how much it meant to me.
this was my turn to play for my grandma.
i never got the chance to.

but it was peaceful.
it reminded me how mysterious death is.
there was a quiet women in a silky, ornate casket.
she could've gotten up and joined in the songs and i wouldn't have been shocked.
personally, i was waiting for her to do that.
just stand up and ask why everyone was crying.

your body doesn't look to dead when your gone.
but you can sense that that person will never again speak.
your eyes say they are a person,
but your mind sees the absence in their eyes.

what i told jessie ann was true and will most likely always be.
i love old spanish people.
they are cute and look so happy to be alive.
despite the fact that they are losing loved ones.
they speak so cautiously,
or they don't speak.
they can say more with a touch of their head, chest and arms.

i'm surprised by You and by death.

the both are beautiful and confusing.

. I was hoping you would be waiting there for me lately
I was hoping you'd be waiting for me
I was hoping you'd be waiting there for me lately
I was hoping you would be waiting there for me
I was hoping you would be waiting there for me lately
but you're not the kind who would be waiting, not for anybody
you're not the kind who would be waiting not for anybody not even me.

-Lnk-

lupe fiasco

lupe fiasco is on-point. lyrics to Hurt Me Soul

"Hurt Me Soul"

Now I ain't tryna be the greatest
I used to hate hip-hop... yup, because the women degraded
But Too $hort made me laugh, like a hypocrite I played it
A hypocrite I stated, though I only recited half
Omittin the word "bitch," cursin I wouldn't say it
Me and dog couldn't relate, til a bitch I dated
Forgive my favorite word for hers and hers alike
But I learnt it from a song I heard and sorta liked
Yeah, for the icin, glamorized drug dealin was appealin
But the block club kept it from in front of our buildin
Gangsta rap-based filmings became the buildin blocks
For children with leakin ceilings catchin drippins with pots
Coupled with compositions from Pac, Nas's "It Was Written"
In the mix with my realities and feelings
Living conditions, religion, ignorant wisdom and artistic vision
I began to jot, tap the world and listen, it drop

My mom can't feed me, my boyfriend beats me
I have sex for money, the hood don't love me
The cops wanna kill me, this nonsense built me
And I got noooo place to gooo
They bomb my village, they call us killers
Took me off they welfare, can't afford they health care
My teacher won't teach me, my master beats me
And it huuurts meee soooul

I had a ghetto boy bop, a Jay-Z boycott
'Cause he said that he never prayed to God, he prayed to Gotti
I'm thinkin godly, God guard me from the ungodly
But by my 30th watchin of "Streets is Watchin"
I was back to givin props again and that was botherin
By this uncomfortable as a untouchable touchin you
The theme songs that niggas hustle to seem wrong but these songs was comin true
And it was all becoming cool
I found a condom on the ground that Johns would cum into and thought
What constitutes a prostitute is the pursuit of profit then they drop it
The homie in a suit pat her on the butt, then rock it
It seems I was seein the same scene adopted
Prevalent in different things with the witnesses indifferent to stop it
They said don't knock it, mind ya business
His business isn't mine and that nigga pimpin got it

They took my daughter, we ain't got no water
I can't get hired, they cross on fire
We all got suspended, I just got sentenced
So I got noooo place to gooo
They threw down my gang sign, I ain't got no hang time
They talk about my sneakers, poisoned our leader
My father ain't seen me, turn off my TV
'Cause it huuurts meee soooul

So through the Grim Reaper sickle sharpening
Macintosh marketing
Oil field augering
Brazilian adolescent disarmament
Israeli occupation
Islamic martyrdom, precise
Yeah, laser guided targeting
Oil for food, water, and terrorist organization harborin
Sand camouflage army men
CCF sponsorin, world conquerin, telephone monitorin
Louis Vuitton modelin, pornographic actress honorin
String theory ponderin, bullimic vomitin
Catholic priest fondlin, pre-emptive bombin and Osama and no bombin them
They breakin in my car again, deforestation and overloggin and
Hennessy and Hypnotic swallowin, hydroponic coughin and
All the world's ills, sittin on chrome 24-inch wheels, like that

They say I'm infected, this is why I injected
I had it aborted, we got deported
My laptop got spyware, they say that I can't lie here
But I got noooo place to gooo
I can't stop eatin, my best friend's leavin
My pastor touched me, I love this country
I lost my earpiece, I hope y'all hear me
'Cause it huuurts meee soooul

i'm back

so i'm back from my trek to new york.
it was marvelous. drove through so many beautiful states.
all with a beautiful girl.
everything was our first together.
our first road trip.
our first time driving through New York City (not on purpose at all)
first time getting pulled over (my fault not hers)
first fist fight (loving fight of course)

i drove the majority of the time,
which i totally didn't mind at all.
having her sit next to me and giving me little kisses sporadically,
angelic.
i drove the last six hours straight through,
she slept.
she was so peaceful.

i have nothing else to say besides we have the whole summer ahead of us.
we have plans,
and we have love.
nothing stands in between us and everything.

.georgia speaks,

-Lnk-

changes

tomorrow....everything changes.
i'm too excited.

.yeah!!!!!.

-Lnk-

from the start

i've been a sinner as long as i can remember.
my sins are my chains.
no matter how hard i try,
their noise keeps me awake.

i've stood still and for awhile i forgot about them.
no noise, no pull.
i felt alright and normal.
i read books, i lived and forgot.

then i moved.
they pulled harder, their grasp hadn't weakened.
they were stronger then before,
the shackles dug into my ankles.

i packed the wounds full of dirt.
it was the only thing around.
i was in the dirt, becoming the ground.
the dirt filled my cuts and subdued the pain.

i walk, slowly i walk towards the fountain.
i can see it, i can smell it.
its tangible.
the closer i get to it the further it is away.

i'm no longer held by chains,
the dirt has grown around me.
it has become the chains.
i can't walk out of this.

some days the fountain is brighter,
other days its invisible.

i can hear others around me,
but they, like the fountain, shift in and out of focus.

i heard someone scream "this way!!"
i couldn't make out which direction it was,
but i ran nonetheless.

the dirt grew up around my calves
and slowly penetrated through my skin.
it shot thoughts through my brain.
it was all i could do to focus on the voice.

i found the edge.
my legs bloodied, my arms withered
and my soul worn.
i jumped.
i landed.

i was somewhere totally different.
everyone around me was stained with dirt.
all our wounds were apparent,
but we hugged each other still.

by our touch, we were brushing off the dirt.
some were dirtier than others,
but the love was the same.
this was the stream.
a stream to the fountain.

it was beautiful.
there were songs,
there were hugs,
there was honesty.

we didn't deny the fact that we were covered in mud.
we didn't embrace it either.
we shared our experiences
and prayed.

we danced in the water
and felt its cooling touch wash away our dirt.

that was then,
and this is......
well this is now.

the dirt never left.
i can walk easier,
but its still around.
the chains are slowly fastening.
the fountain is still flowing.

the dirt will never leave.
till the day that fountain bursts,
the dirt will have its hold on us.
on me.

it is up to me to walk to that stream.
friends help, but ultimately this is my choice.
i have to walk and pray that i can be forgiven.
and with that grace, i can wash away my dirt.
i can cleanse my filthy wounds.
i can quench my thirst.

.forgiven&forgotten.

-Lnk-

ailments

so i've been sick for the past couple of days.
i've scoured the net to find quick ways to fix a sore throat.
i leave early monday morning to fly to new york.
i'm picking my baby up and we're driving down.

it should be exciting, but thats besides the point.

i don't want to be sick when i fly up.
so i tried this method i found online.
gargling with cayenne pepper.
it works great.
its purty awesome.

but it doesn't taste to great.
cayenne pepper and warm water....blech!
but that got me thinking???
taste???

taste are just the opinions of the mouth.
why don't i like something?
cause it doesn't taste good to me?
why doesn't it taste good to me?
some people love candy hearts,
i don't care for them.
some people think that the war in iraq is justified,
i disagree.

so yeah, through my own awkward thinking,
i have been "enlightened".
taste are the opinions of the mouth.

all this wisdom from having a sore throat.

.scratchy-scratch.

-Lnk-

the moon

she was in front of me,
then over my right shoulder.
then in front of me again.

i just sat down and watched her watch me.
she didn't say anything to me
and i didn't say anything to her.
we just stared at each other.
no words were required.

i drove over all of you,
i watched your reds and whites.
i had some of my own to add to the party.

.i'm greedy.


-Lnk-

saved

i was saved by audio.
if it weren't for the Passion '08 cd,
my ride home would've been atrocious.

i have this weird habit of riding my bike late at night.
i'm going to continue that habit now.

.buh bye.

-Lnk-

you know?

you know those days when despite your failures,
you know it'll be alright.
despite workdays ahead,
you are calm and excited for the night.

today was purty.
light smoke from the everglades,
cool breeze, sunset.
it was a good ride.

the sun was huge.
so big it was tangible.
like an over ripe tangerine sinking into the ground.
the moon, small and silent, waited for its turn to reign the sky.

it was perfect.
God is poetic.
look at the sky.
its perfect.

-Lnk-

i'm back

she: how was it tonight?
he: it was awesome. He definitely showed up.
she: how do you know He "showed up"?
he: cause i know me. i know how much i lack.

so i don’t care if... nobody loves me, nobody loves me
nobody loves me but you

.derek webb.

-Lnk-

da da da dee da da

your getting pretty old and your growing some grays,
around your pretty face.
you sleep most of the time and don't runaway,
like you used to in your old days.

your nails are growing long, you walk really slow,
your voice is purely frail.
you've always been my friend and you're with me through the end,
even after you kick the pail.

yeah i wrote you a song, even though your my dog,
but you are still my love.
yeah i wrote you a song, even though your my dog,
you'll always be my love.

we bought you and we brought you home,
you ran into the lake.
we jumped in after you and swam as fast as we could,
we couldn't lose our babe.

we saved you from the murky depths,
and took you inside.
we dried you off good and went out to play,
till the sun did hide.

yeah i wrote you a song, even though your my dog,
but you are still my love.
yeah i wrote you a song, even though your my dog,
you'll always be my love.

and i know the day will come,
when our ways must part.
but leave knowing this,
you'll always have my heart.

yeah i wrote you a song, even though your my dog,
but you are still my love.
yeah i wrote you a song, even though your my dog,
you'll always be my love.

.inspired by my doggy.
.she hates me.

-Lnk-