and this is where it gets grey

friends leave,
bands separate,
music stops,
waves lap up to shore.

i don't know what to do.

i'm an easy target now
and just need to go away
for a long time.

i just want to be at work.
it's simple there.

i'm hurting
below the throat
in between the ribs and lungs.

the office still helps.

hopefully sleep will render this all a dream.

who would we be if we believed in "Ask and ye shall receive."

how would it change if we all believed the same "Christ came to save sinners of whom I am chief."

.poorattemptatrhyming.

-Lnk-

not everytime

thank you Lord for a good day.
it had some horrible trudging times
but all in all
i can rest my head feeling good.

i don't know what to do sometimes.
it feels that no matter how much of an effort i make
things just don't click.
i line up the pieces
and people don't move into place.

i can only imagine how frustrated and angry you get at us.
we are always messing things up
and doing it however we see fit.

help me see things/people through your eyes.
give me wisdom
and peace.

and let everyone know that i love them.
cause i do.

.especiallyyou.

-Lnk-

a new one

got a new car
and i love it.
it was all God
cause i wasn't looking for this car at all.

can't wait to break it in.

.nonameyet.

-Lnk-

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sometimes i wonder

why me?
why now?

why not somewhere else?

i do get envious every so often.
but i'm here for a reason.
i may not know it now
but who am i to know everything.

"Were you the first person ever born? Were you born before the hills were made?"
Job 15:7

.strong.

-Lnk-

what to do

i don't know what to do now.
someone is mad and i don't know how to facilitate a solution.
i want to be here again.

maybe let it rest?

.egosandpride.

-Lnk-

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lake house

well we are here and i've already had
more fun then i planned for.
riding wave runners into the sunset, tearing up the wake on Bucefillus, coming across the lake with my four bois.
its all too much to take in.

i'm really looking forward to sleeping on the couch.
and then waking up at 7:30 to hit up the lake.

i'm so blessed

.andlifecouldntbesweeter.

-Lnk-

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things don't always make sense

so this weekend has been great.
and has ended quite differently.
panicked phone calls are never fun to answer.

but i'm glad that things do get figured out
and that no matter how old you are
friends are still a necessity.

.don'tforgetwhoyouarelovedby.


-Lnk-

just might be okay

listen to food and liquor
which now i feel is better than the cool.
my girl is sick
but feeling better now.
i know she can muscle it.

played around with autotune on garageband.
and its too much fun.

its amazing how we are so unaware of our dependence on God
until it all falls.
power fails, signals disappear.
i just don't want to depend on me anymore
its so easy to do that here.

here being the US.

cause i'm not faced with the possibility of dying everyday.
or maybe i am
and just not aware of it.
i may not be gunned down for worshiping God
but i will die from giving my soul to lesser
less than from where it was meant to be.

but now my eyes grow heavy
so i'm calling it.

goodnight universe


.shinsaresore.

-Lnk-