no love

i'm tired of this drive
and waking up so damn early.
arrrghhhhh
just bring the fall already
i want the cool weather.
i want to be at church playing music already
the journey there is way TOO long.

just keep talking dude
but no one is listening.
why is this the right thing to do?

i'll never know.
i have some weird theories but they would just sound ridiculous.

.brainwashing?.

-Lnk-

mw2

got modern warfare 2 tonight.
headed to gamestop and held my number 34.
and the game is worth all the waiting and the receipt exchanges.
its mad intense and going to consume a lot of my time.

but on the more serious side
i am praying about going into the ministry.
using my gift of music in the church as a worship pastor.
so i'm mulling through what that would mean for me,
and trying to keep everything in line.
but it is harsh.

i don't understand everything
and God has been granting me patience
and mercy.
and i am thankful.

but i also am tired.
and i will go to sleep
with unresolved issues
that i can't control
but i'm trying to get it addressed,
but the addressee continues to return my requests.

.alliwanttodoishelp.

-Lnk-