i'm unrighteous

i'm undeserving.
i'm what you scrap off your feet.
i'm what people wave off.

i'm so afraid of what i am.

-Lnk-

i rested

i slept in today....not too much.
just till around 10.
i plan to sleep later tonight.
school is killer.
she left this morning.
i miss her.
but she'll be fine,
we made it through one year,
we can do two.

all houses aren't made on concrete,
although they should be.
slowly our society adds more and more water to the mix,
eventually its all water and the houses collapse whenever they second guess themselves.
they crash and fall in on their walls,
after the dust clears they are left with frames,
broken boards, nails.....emptiness.

but we can stop this,
we can stop this watering down.
we can make our own, start from scratch.
solid foundation, having the house believe it was made for a purpose.
it's not here for decoration, to have the coolest in it.
it was made to house Our Savior.

we are so much more than we think we are.
we are so much.....we are nothing.
we are empty until we see that He is everything.

.dontsellyourselfshort.

-Lnk-

do i need to explain it again

today was up and down.
just like my ride.
never steady and paced,
just up and back down.

i jumped the gun,
and got shot by the bullet.
wanted more than i could handle,
and got less than what i hoped for.

goodnight michigan.

-Lnk-

nothing gets me

like pictures do.
i see people who were one thing before,
and now are so obsessed with plastic red and blues.
i've changed, but not a 180.
i don't think i have.

well got to go to work
and watch kids being kids.

.lovetherain.

-Lnk-

good times

good food,
good friends,
good movie,
smokin' hot girl on my arm.

school is paid off!!!!
at least for this semester.
now to sleep.

-Lnk-

the awkward silence

i know tropical storm's and hurricanes bring pain to many people,
but living through more than a handful of them,
i've found the bright side to these storms.

before the storm, everything quiets down.
roads are less crowded, and at least in my house,
there is an uneasiness.
my mom gets a little frantic.
its windy, the rain flows in sheets,
the street lights reflect off the slick concrete
and creates this eerie feeling that you are on the edge of something.
something bigger than yourself.

the storm grows stronger and the winds pick up.
lawn chairs that were forgotten are soon caught in the gales.
the sky is oddly a light grey
and the clouds are dancing where they usually stand still.
if one were to venture outside,
depending on the category of the storm,
you can actually feel mother nature psychically pushing you.
you can feel her hands grabbing you to join her in her fun.

the eye,
its quick, brings a short calm.
its a beautiful break in the calamity.
its gone.

afterwards,
its quiet again.
branches are strewn about,
random puddles are in uncharted territory.
if your house loses power,
your windows will be open.
suddenly your entire house will smell like the outdoors.
a warm, musty fragrance.
sticks on your clothes, furniture, blankets, bedsheets.
its wonderful.

taking a short ride after the storm is an adventure.
it reminds me of Silent Hill,
empty streets, broken trees, garbage cans;
basically anything that wasn't held down
now decorates the roads and appreciates the feeling of being noticed.
the sky is still grey
and the clouds that lagged behind are racing to catch up.

its nostalgic, unique, inspiring, quieting,
lovely, scary.
its what i've grown up around.
its amazing to see what God's creation is capable of.

.theofficeisstillawesome.

-Lnk-

growing up

hopefully i've made some progress somewhere.
but i found DOS again.
its wonderful.
games that i couldn't complete before are still challenging.
the old white text on the black background,
simple commands c:, install.exe
brings back so many memories.

and i don't know how anyone else feels
but i don't care much at all for the olympics.
i used to back when dominique was around.
but no thanks now.

tropic thunder: A-

just waiting for tomorrow

-Lnk-

its too late

Employer: the_crud

Position: mash keys together till they no longer resemble themselves

Description:
find all the noises in the world,
pick out the ones that would sound good together,
marry them under electronic signals and wacked out samples,
translate them to english,
release them on cd's,
make humans realize that we were meant for more than our average of 80 years.

City/Town: lying between the troposphere and mars

its 3:35 am
go to myspace.com/crudbot
enjoi

-Lnk-

found a great way to sum America

How does that old joke go? “This is your captain speaking; I’ve got good news and bad news. The bad news is that we’re lost . . . I have no idea where we are. But the good news . . . we’re making exceptionally good time.”
-Pat Boone

we've lost our moral compass,
we are a young country wandering the landscape,
filling our pockets with whatever looks good.
we're hoping that those things will keep us happy for this day.
we are knee deep in credit card debt,
and are hearts are as empty as our bank accounts.
and we'll be damned if someone tells us different.
we start little debates within our country,
and that keeps us occupied enough to not look at the rest of the world.

i'm just pessimistic tonight.
and its all some pixels fault.

.peevedoff.

-Lnk-

let me get on my soapbox

what must i do to show that i detest culture's music and push to make us like it.
not just the music, the clothes, the way we "should" wear them, the image they want us to potray.
i just hate it.
so i'll amuse myself.

.chill, we're crumping.
.hahahaha, be real.

-Lnk-

theodore roosevelt

quote on honesty:

"We cannot afford to differ on the question of honesty
if we expect our republic permanently to endure.
Honesty is not so much a credit as an absolute prerequisite
to efficient service to the public.
Unless a man is honest, we have no right to keep him in public life;
it matters not how brilliant his capacity."

.think about that.

-Lnk-

synders pretzel and cheese sandwiches

well tuesday and friday are my blogging days on the crudbot myspace site.
check it out kids:
crudbot's myspace
verse for today- Romans 7:15
starting the office from season 1 through 4.
i'm so excited for season 5
YEA!!!!!
i just heard thunder and i throughly enjoy rainy afternoons.
and i'm sweaty from running.

.189&counting.

-Lnk-

i have been neglecting

this blog.
life has been quit tumultuous,
but tonight was crazy.
recording tracks with my new band.

ridiculous.
totally screwing up sounds and tearing it apart.

can't wait for this ep to be done.
these songs sounds so purty.

but life has been up and down.
my best friend left for college,
but my girl and i have had time to spend together.
i'm tired.
i'm musically pooped out.
i'll update tomorrow.

.kidturbo.

-Lnk-

found it

found your blog, i read it
i'm purty sure you wouldn't want me to find it.
but your asleep,
like usual.

nothing has changed,
and hopefully nothing does.
you are gorgeous asleep.
your _________

i have no words.
you make me speechless.
i love you.

.607.

-Lnk-