impressions

so i had some time to do nothing.
so i started working on my walken impression.
it's difficult.
tried to do it on the way to school.
now all i can hear is everything spoken
as if walken spoke it.

it's boring in my brain

.screw.

-Lnk-

i like space

i'm not good enough
on my knees is where i need to be,
but where you'll not likely find me.

i give my heart away like everyday,
not to You,
but to Your creation.
my goodness,
like i....
damn.....
i just want to be held.
and some nights
i want it more than others.

like last night,
think i melted.
she was in no way ugly
but she felt that way.
if girls only knew....

but i can never say it,
out of my mouth.
cause i'm a sucker for a pretty face.
the first time i tell anyone,
will most likely be the last.
with my face bright red
and my heart pounding a million miles a minute.
i will not say anything.

.causeimapuss.

-Lnk-

to quote hannah montana

we want "the best of both worlds."
we want to date someone,
but still have the freedom to be single,
we want to be in God's grace,
yet we want to hold on to our sinful nature.

make a decision,
to quote Becoming the Archetype
"It's life or death
Now make your choice
Whose side are you on?"

step up and choose what you want?
you want your life on your own terms,
or you going to do things God's way?

i also, throughout yesterday, realized
that dead men can't be reasoned with.
2 Corinthians 4:4
"The god (Satan) of this age has blinded the minds of unbelievers, so that they cannot see the light of the gospel of the glory of Christ, who is the image of God."
if they can't see,
how are they going to be able to understand.

and in that lies the mystery of God
and his sovereignty.
i have to trust that He allows everyone an opportunity for salvation.

pick your side,
Matthew 8:22
But Jesus told him, "Follow me, and let the dead bury their own dead."
Luke 9:62
Jesus replied, "No one who puts his hand to the plow and looks back is fit for service in the kingdom of God."
get moving.
all or nothing.

.wewanteverything.

-Lnk-

only so much i can take

i can only have so much of you.
you make me too happy.
when i hear you sing,
it makes me feel warm.
your eclectic
and your simple clothes
remind me of the middle of summer.
i'm smitten.
like waking up from a midday nap
and feeling so content.
i'll probably never meet you
and i will be the first to say
that this is weird that i'm blogging about you
but you have captured my eye
with simple words
and sounds to accompany them.
wish i could take you out.
but how would a boy like me
find you?
for now i have my guitar?
hopefully my songs will find you
as yours have found me
and you smile.
cause my face is never in a frown
listening to you.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

so...........
man life has been hectic.
between one of my best friends
being hurt really bad
and my boi in virginia
getting a job,
its great and horrible haha.
i've been really busy
trying to finish school field hours,
school projects
and working.
i'm growing my facial hair
and don't plan on shaving for awhile.
i have no one to impress,
although i could think of a few.
but its just me
relax and chill.

tomorrow i plan on mowing the lawn,
outside YEAH!!!!
i like smelling like the sun.
its rewarding.
i saw her sis and mom at dunkin donuts
and dreamt about her last night.
the dream was happy and it was like it was.
we were on the road,
but i woke up and realized where i was
and where she's gone to.
what am i going to do about it?
nothing much.
but her mom gave me the most sincere hug i've had in awhile.
it made me smile through the awkwardness.
we spoke and her sis is still addicted to that cellphone.
haha
good times.
i'm happy i met her
but i need to stop giving my heart away,
she earned it
and i gave it willingly.
but how many times can i do this?
two is too much already
hahaha i'm such a puss.

damn third eye blind is sick.
but tomorrow is wide open
and saturday tackett will be in town.
should be sick.
next sunday i'm leading a song in big church,
and i realized last weekend
that i was always wanting to be on big church stage.
even at flamingo,
i wanted to play with the adults.
and now i am
but at a different church,
but they are nice
and always smile and ask if i need anything.
just cool that i remembered that dream of mine.

man i've been through shit,
haha and God has brought me here.
in a v-neck white shirt,
old P.E. shorts,
single,
in a house with my sis and dog,
in school,
facial hair,
confused,
and kind of sun burned.

i'm okay with life,
but being okay doesn't mean i'm not mad.
does anyone realize that relationship is built on a lie?
anyone but me?
when is anyone going to ask questions?
arrgghhh....
its the same thing with our government,
haha no one is going to ask questions
and when people start realizing whats happening
it'll be too late.
good thing obama isn't in control
GOD/JEHOVAH/ALPHA and OMEGA IS!!!!!!
damn that's so refreshing and comforting.

only place i'd rather be is either at disney or passion

.eitherofthetwo.

-Lnk-

only line of communication

came across a derek webb video
that had a song from his newest record.
its entitled "A Savior on Capitol Hill"
it's a cutting song.
blunt and honest.
and before one of his performances of that song
he spoke a bit.
and this stood out.

"I'm not saying you shouldn't vote, just that you're at liberty not to. Never do anything that violated your conscience."

before he dropped that chunk of knowledge,
he challenged people who were struggling with who to vote for,
to find a mandate in the Bible that says to vote.
he made it clear he wasn't against people getting involved
and hell, he's in the thick of it.
writing and singing his songs that speak about being a Christian in our nation.

but that was awesome.
i've always had that on my mind.
hearing well meaning folks encourage and nea i say, demand me to vote.
where is that in the Bible?
to vote.
even if you don't agree with any side?

but i'm just thinking about it today.
and maybe talking to someone.
maybe someone will agree and listen.

.peclass.

-Lnk-

drop it all

if i met you tomorrow,
i'd drop everything.
i'd stop everything
just to let you know that you are worth it.

if you bumped into me and knocked my books down,
i'd leave them there.
on the floor, face up;
just the way you make me feel.

all life aside and just with you.
i don't need a huge house,
filled with gratuitous amounts of stuff.
a shack would do,
simply built for two,
and pots to catch the rain.

on the side of mountain
overlooking the sea,
or in the rundown projects
in the back alley.
our home,
my spouse.
just us and God.

asking Him questions,
quoting scripture we are struggling with.
losing sleep because sleep only takes away from time with each other.

i'm not crazy good looking,
i'm not chiseled out of white marble.
i'm not smooth or slick.

i'm quirky and have dreams to give.

*shrug*

-Lnk-

fml

speechless
i am without speech

-Lnk-

No Carousel of Progress

went to magic kingdom today.
with my aunt, uncle and sis.
it was great.
we are posted up in a hotel
and hitting up epcot tomorrow.

but seriously,
like seriously God.
tonight,
when i'm so weak.
no thanks,
skip me
dude.
can't take that and i just want to forget it.
but we've spent time here.
i know you saw me
but i'm not calling or communicating.
that would make it harder than this already is.
damn
fml.

dude where's my wingman?
haha vampires seriously
vampiric to the bone.

arghh praying that that doesn't happen again.
mission mars yeah.

.prayforwisdom.

-Lnk-

happy happy

been a hard couple days lately.
but i have the best damn friends ever.
watchmen was great.
my sister moved out.
i smoked a cigar.

i've been smiling a lot,
especially when i see couples kissing.
it makes me happy,
happy for them.
and it gives me hope.

the windows have been open and i've been falling asleep to the sound of the highway.
it's great and it reminds me of being in ohio t
at my grandparents house.
i cleaned my room.

i am painting a picture in my mind
and hopefully you will find your way into it.

.ihitmeredithwithmycar.

-Lnk-