just to be big

it seems that you arrange stuff to get attention.
hangouts, so you can make the jokes.
i don't know how this works.
i just feel icky, like they all still have some primordial ooze on top of their skin.
it doesn't feel right driving around,
and it sure doesn't feel right stepping on the grounds.

but who am i to judge?
i'm dirtier than anyone.
but i still don't like it.
it's not a grudge i'm holding,
its an opinion held by me and others whose names you've trashed.
for what reason you trashed us,
don't know.
and i doubt you even know yourself.
its just too easy to gossip,
and its kind of fun.

today can be awful or awesome.
depends on what happens with 3 people.
but my days mood shouldn't be dictated by what happens.
i'll be content cause i am,
not because you are healed.

.but that's what we're praying for.

-Lnk-