get to going

ah come on what do you think you are doing?
get up....what are so down for idiot?
it just ended, all my hard work done.
well maybe just maybe,
ha when has maybe EVER MEANT maybe, try never...
maybe is just a cop out when someone doesn't have the heart to say no.
well okay but you had something,
we did, i'll give you that but just to have it disappear so quickly.
well.....
well what, you have any answers, no, but all i have is equipment.
bulky, heavy equipment.
now the only person i want to talk to i can't.
and when i can, the z's come in.
i can't catch a break.

i'm tired of being teased and thats what it seems my life has been.
a lot of empty promises from churches, jobs, friends, managers, "people who know".
or maybe the promises weren't empty, maybe i am.
maybe those promises fell through cause of me.
what if i had done something different?
i'm still tired of being teased,
more than half way but still not home.

what the *expletive* expletive*expletive*
pardon my language but come on, make some damn effort.

i'm in such a Debbie Downer mood.
get up.
but on a softer side The Office is returning.
at least i know i'll be laughing sometime soon.
friggin fraggin

.getup/wakeup, don't leave me alone.

-Lnk-