i'm not special

i'm not great by any means.
i've got bends in more than my knees.
at times my bones push through my skin
wondering at how i ended up in this body i am in.
wondering why i'm loved by You
and why you stay around.
after the lights are off and silence is the sound.
i'm nothing special or cool
just genes and some molecules.
a walking primordial pool.

and tonight i'm feeling it deep
between the ribs and heart.
somewhere lodged at the back of my stomach
against my spine.
it burns
cause i don't know how to deal.
i'm a sucker for a conversation
and the gauntlet has been thrown.

and when do i make it known
that the new sun shines brighter
and differently?
i don't want dark corners
i want it all out there
for eyes to observe.
i want You to have all
cause You gave.

now my fallible body aches for sleep,
and before i pass off
i know i'll think about the day
and what i've said and thought.
i'll take back those words
but i'll leave the moments.
because i'll laugh about a dog eating a squeak toy.
and you trying to smack a fly out of the air.

with God all things are possible
and i'm beginning to understand what that actually means.

.guyritchie.

-Lnk-