tonight

took my love out to eat and it was wonderful. it was like the world was right and we were each others for a couple of hours.

it was cold and i liked it.

i don't like speaking of it in past tense cause i want it to still be here.

i want to be there in laguna grill talking about our love and the problems that it brings.

we had an actual conversation. not just "i miss you, i miss you also". real stuff. real love and real pain.

it felt so good and promising. when we make it through these years that's how it will be. real and good.

rolling over in bed and seeing her face. seeing the diamond shine in her eyes. seeing her get "fchlempt" when i get down on one knee.

cause i will, just for her. not for anyone else.

and i want to now, but that wouldn't be fair to either of us.

that's life.

boys don't cry.

but i do.

i do a lot.

guess Robert Smith is wrong, but i still like his music.

i'll let him be wrong once in awhile, he's allowed.

well going to watch transformers and pass into the last night.

g'night

-Lnk-